Warhead On Legs

( 日本語 )

Every once in a while I wonder why I do this to myself. Why I bother to learn three languages at once, why I put myself through this when I'll never master all the stuff I want to master anyway and it's not like insert half a dozen excuses here. Little voices in the back of my head whispering, oh give it up already. It's not like you're getting anywhere. It's not like it really matters. It's not like anyone gives a damn. Fuck you, little voices. Fuck you right in the eye.

So, yes, it's been that kind of a day. Four pages of Japanese grammar typed up did not help. But on the plus side, I've gotten a lot done already. I do have two book blurbs to write, that I'm not looking forward to, because if the voices are whispering give it up it doesn't matter on the languages, they just won't shut up on the damn book self-publishing endeavor. This is where it's useful also to have Also Mes, or headvoices, or whatever else you call them. More positive whispers that say, ah, fuck'em, you'll have done something and you'll have done something you wanted to do, that you like. And that's worth it no matter what anyone says.

... No, you know what, bad little voices? Fuck you in the eye with a power tool. If the boything calls up from whatever hospital he's CNAing at and says "Hey sweetie, I got a patient here who's talking in a language no one understands, can you identify it?" I stand a hell of a lot better chance of identifying and being able to translate if I keep working and keep moving, and thereby it makes not only me feel better, but also other people. So, hah. Bite me.

On the other hand, hey, look! I finally made an expressive caterpillar brain icon! Soon to come, Bitch, Please and conquering the world-building leviathan. I think I'm going to forgo tossing the rest of it up at you because it's 5,000+ words, and that's just the questions. Seriously, don't tackle this thing unless you really want to build all the details of a world from scratch, oh my god, I'd forgotten how insane I could get. And am going again, right now. Whoops.

( 日本語 )

I think I did that right. Hurm.

Right. No one is allowed to come to Dragon*Con anymore, unless they bump another guest off the list. Because damn. My list of autographs I want is rapidly verging on epic. (And by epic I mean 40.) And, granted, not all of those are people I necessarily will stand in line 20 minutes for, but still. A lot of them are the kind I want to ambush. Which is a little weird. I'd half expected most of the B5 crew, most of whose autographs I already have, to be there. But, no, only ... two, I think, B5 actors. and a whole host of Eureka and Warehouse 13 and various others. And Firefly people. And Heroes people. And various other people. Yeeesh.

So, yeah. But, I've poked my finances, and even with the bills I have currently, I'm set to go to Dragon*Con fully flush and funded. Which is kind of awesome. And next year I'll have two costumes I can wear, and some garb, and maybe the other two days I'll wear a different costume or maybe I'll assemble something different if I get a wild hair, but I'll be spending a LOT less on assembling the damn outfits than I did this year and last year. It's a lot easier when all you have to buy is stockings and maybe some new insoles or makeup.

Speaking of costumes, though. Thanks to my minor flaily panic about leotards for my Cheetara costume (why is it so fucking hard to find a simple wide-strap cross-back leotard in white? Bloody HELL.) I now have a frillion other leotards (read: five) that are just hanging around. I have two pink, one pale blue and one pale purple and one burgundy. Given that these are cross-back leotards, what superheroine costume could I make from these? Any recommendations?

Seriously, I need to not let Flutter's reluctance to do any work whatsoever infect me. Just because she irritates me doesn't mean I can punish her by leaving the order-picking for her to do. I can damn well do it myself, get it over with, get a bit of walking exercise, and not be worse off for it. Except in lack of writing time, but I haven't even started writing yet anyway, and I just did Japanese. Come on, self. Stop being so bitchy.

( Deutsch )

( 日本語 )

Oh god, why am I so damn tired. This means it's time to actually get my ass moving on writing so I can go to bed, doesn't it. Yes, yes it does.

No, Jag, stop screwing around and do your damn Japanese.

( 日本語 )

I think what I may do at this point is look ahead or in the other book for some exercises that deal with grammar points I remember more clearly and also use the plain present form of verbs so that I can practice this. Because I'm running out of sentences and I'd really like to get the construction of this form down.

Spanish rice did NOT need to be in the big box (I'm actually finding it hard to find things that do need to be in the big box, maybe because I eat more small meals than any one big meal?) but at least it's good cold? So I can leave it on my desk and just sort of nibble. Still have a crapton of stuff to get done today, but first, some bento note-taking.

( お弁当 )

What? I can write bentou in kanji if I want. :)

Right. Packing stuff in a blitz attack because after I do that then I can do writing stuff, and this is my last day to get all that done. Well, except for maybe a couple hours tomorrow, but still.

Breaking News: I has a mango.

( 日本語 )

Oof. All right, that's going to require some major review. Kind of like noun cases ihttp://www.dreamwidth.org/updaten Russian, it'll just be a matter of repeating and memorizing, I guess.

Hot. Sticky. Tired. Disappointed by people on the internet, or maybe just people in general. What do they teach children in school these days? Certainly not how to write. I think I'll go lie down on the mail cart. It's nice and cool down there.

... I really don't want to put away the ENTIRE kitchen when I get home. Ugh.

( Japanese )

Posting this to my journal so that I actually remember to do it these days. And to have, I guess, a midway checkpoint on the things I need to do during the day, though I doubt it will be anything as simple as a bullet point list. So you all get to see me rambling a little more. :)

Actually, at this rate, I'm tempted just to start up a language journal but then I'd never actually post in this one so never mind. You all get to see me ramble two to three times a day. And have a little language lesson during it. Although while I'm at it, if anyone's reviewing these languages often enough that they want me to put down tags for verb forms, noun cases, etc, when I review them so they can go back and reference things since they don't have the book, speak now or forever hold your peace! Or just, you know. Let me know if you want the name of the book I'm using, which might be easier if not necessarily cheaper.

While I'm at it, and while I'm doing Japanese, if anyone wants to follow along do you want me to include a pronunciation key, of sorts in the exercise? Let me know! Because I've studied this before so I can read it fairly well, barring the vocab issue. Hiragana and Katakana, that is. Basically, let me know if there's anything you're curious about as far as language lessons go. I'm also starting typing up the Japanese from lesson 5, so.

Oogh. Still not looking forward to the mail order sale week, but I think I have all my writing stuff scheduled, and as far as other stuff I'm knocking down most of those tasks like gangbusters. Right now, a bit of a walk. And then work and writing, and hopefully tonight I will actually jam German back into my schedule. One step at a time, though. No beating up on myself if I don't get there.