kittydesade: (like a boss)
Russsssssian )

So, okay, that didn't quite work out as planned, on account of most of the afternoon was spent trying to do work and not throw up. But tonight there can be hand sewing and writing Gods and Monsters for next week. And in the meantime I can spend the rest of the afternoon editing stories to, help, put up for sale for 99 cents or so. Maybe 1.99, considering. .99 for 5000 words, 1.99 for 10,000. That seems about right, yes? Ulp. And then if things can get bundled together, periodically releasing anthologies of the short stories. I can't believe I'm even doing this. I need to revamp my fiction section, too, for various and sundry stuff. I think I'll start that, though, after I figure out how this whole Lulu thing works.

And in the meantime I'm going on fun other adventures, like Dragon*Con, and figuring out how to knit cables, and indigo dyeing. And after knitting cables there will be Fair Isle knitting, or at least stranded colorwork, and all kinds of other projects. So many projects do I have, you people! And I'm starting to, thinking of it all, have that feeling of what the hell why am I juggling all this shit how is this even possible. Bit by bit, self. Calm down.

And, you know, make a schedule. I think I need to do scheduling. I think I also need to do batch cooking again, only this weekend it needs to be batch cooking of the kind that can freeze easily, because we can just stick it in the deep freeze and have it there when I recover from Dragon*Con. Quesadillas and things, maybe. Spaghetti sauce. Actually, that sounds like an excellent plan. Note to self: Tell the boy to get more chicken for freezer meat for quesadillas. And. Okay, yes. I can do this. No sweat. Just one task after another.

(Am I starting to panic yet? No, but I am starting to come apart at the organization.)

And for all those of you who get by with a little help from your girlfriends, here's one woman's essay celebrating the ladies in her life. Warning: It does involve child illness/death/impending death, too, so keep that in mind.

Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today!
kittydesade: (like woolf and vita)
Gaeilge )

Oh dear god we did a lot of traipsing around all over everywhere the other day. Friday... actually, I barely remember Friday. No, right, because there was work and then there was going and checking out the drum circle, and then we ran into the Dancing Fiddler and checked him out, and then there was home and dinner and I barely remember what happened after that. The boy went to work. I think that was the night we watched Willow and Anna slept through half of it. And then I rewound it so she could see Sorsha punch Madmartigan in the neck for being a doof. Saturday! Dear god. Saturday we got out of the house and picked up the car and got to downtown around noon for a lunch buffet at the downtown Indian place, then realized we'd eaten ourselves into a food coma and dragged ourselves up the hill (and in and out of a couple of stores) and back to the store to sit at the spinning wheel for a bit, and also sit at the desk and stare into space. After which we went to our salon appointment! Mmm chair massage. And now I have bubblegum pink toenails, and Anna has sexy red toenails, and our eyebrows are done and we're all prettified. And then we went back to the store to ponder our next move, which ended up being Jack of the Wood for dinner and way too tinny music (the musicians were fine but their sound equipment was half crap. or maybe overamplified for the venue) and good food and amazing blueberry cake. And then we went to see Pacific Rim. Which was exactly as advertised. There were robots, there were huge monster things, and there was awesome.

Lucky to be me, I spent the better part of Sunday spinning or resting, since I didn't have an orientation to go to. Did get some really hideous bubblegum candy and white looking yarn spun. It looks like candy. It seriously looks like peppermint candies or pixie sticks or something. We have plans for it, oh yes we do. I need to remember to set it before I leave this morning.

I think the current plan for the day is write something to the mailing list about taking two weeks off to hang with the bestie, and update everyone on what I'm working on now. After that, working on Gods and Monsters, Black Ice, and something else through the day. I'm not sure what that something else will be, but some other fiction thing. And of course, day job work. I have a rough idea of when I'll have an Anna and when I'll have an evening largely to myself since the boy will probably be asleep for a bit, so I can figure out what else I'm going to do then. Maybe Murderboarding (we've already taken a two-week hiatus there) or maybe writing. Who knows! Either way I seem to have been nagged into a vacation both from within and from without, and I can't say as I mind.

Also I've rediscovered my obsession with spinning. Which is to say I finally got the damn wheel set up and actually, keeping it downstairs in case of movie is not that bad of a plan. It works perfectly! So, yes. That's happening.

Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today!
kittydesade: (singing in the wilderness)
Gaeilge )

I has an Anna! We has a tired. But, let's see, so far we have visited a local restaurant I hadn't been to before that was quite tasty and rather nice, not too echoy inside, very close (walking distance), good prices, and I'm pretty sure they thought we were a cute lesbian couple. The waiter was cute! There were lamb sliders. Dear god they were fucking tasty. And nachos with queso that was also fucking tasty. And in general I approve of that place. And then we had hanging out on the couch and watching TV and eating chocolate bars and snarking at the stupid Poltergeist people. Like you do, because that show is full of silly.

Today the plan seems to be go to work and play it by ear in the evening. The boy has work so there won't be too many plans to do anything extensive, especially since he'll probably spend most of today asleep on account of no sleep yesterday. I have no idea what we were going to do tonight, there were some ideas but I don't remember any of them.

Stuff and things. I've gotten myself addicted to Gates of Camelot, or rather Tanya Huff did. The evil wench. You should all join me and we can form a clan.

Yeah, I got nothing else and I should go do the getting ready for work thing. I has an Anna! This is going to be the bestest, most hilariousest two weeks ever.
kittydesade: (flaily kermit is flaily!)
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Well, Russian didn't happen on account of trying to get Gods and Monsters done and being late for everything because dentist. And getting distracted by another fic project. And okay, let's face it, writing new things is more fun than translating traumatic interviews.

I have a sleepy. I also have a final freaking out about oh my god house so dirty. ... that's about all there is to say to that, really.

So. Today I will have an Anna! And today most likely either we will either go to the blue bottle park and make dinner and hang out or she will pass out upon arrival, not sure which. I think at this point we're playing it by ear until we get to the weekend whereupon there will be spa things and good food and Pacific Rim. Because giant robots vs giant monsters. For which I am apparently getting into the mood by watching The Mummy Returns. Go figure.

Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today!
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Things to remember, in no particular order:

1. Yes, it is okay for you to occasionally say no when you are out of cope or strength or energy. You are not a bad person to say, I can't handle this right now and bad things will happen if I try. Overreaching leads to worse things, generally speaking. Say 'no, I cannot do this' in a rational manner before you explode in an irrational one.

2. Know when to say when, and pay a-bloody-ttention. Just because you feel like you're coping with extra responsibilities, sudden tragedies or potential catastrophes, or any other major shift in your life right now does not mean you are coping as well as you think you are. If you start realizing you're reacting a little strongly to something you didn't used to last week? Stop right there and think about why. Don't let it get out of hand or escalate.

3. Meditation is, sometimes, your friend. It might be a good idea to get into the habit again. Ahem ahem.

4. Just because you made all these mistakes doesn't mean that you can't fix them, or that you're a bad person and deserve to be punished. You will make mistakes. Your job is not to punish yourself but rather to learn from your mistakes and not make them again. Forgive yourself, fix the mistakes as best you can, and don't do it again.

4b. More often than not, punishment is a losing game anyway. Is punishment productive in this instance? No? Then don't worry about punishing yourself (or the offender!) and worry about making the consequences of that mistake productive of some good.

5. Remember to breathe, to laugh, to rest, to learn, and to love. All of these are good.

6. Ragabash.

7. It is not shameful to ask for help. Repeat after me. It is not shameful to ask for help. It is not shameful to ask for help. It is not shameful to ask for help. Just because you want to look like Superwoman in physical terms of muscle and tone does not mean you have to be perfect. Just because you are a priestess doesn't mean you have to be one to everyone all the time. Just because you are X doesn't mean you have to be X all the time. It is not shameful to ask for help. See #1.

8. Remember that you are loved. If you doubt this, ask. Pretty much there are always people around who will remind you. With frying pans, if necessary.

9. You are capable of far more than you think you are. That doesn't mean you should try to force yourself. Do the best you can with what you have. You might be surprised how far it goes. Then remember to rest. See above.

10. Squirrels.

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