kittydesade | Entries tagged with keep moving and fail better

( Russian! )

Arrrgh I'm having one of those No One Cares days again. ALREADY. I did not need this shit, I have work to do. Seeing "Oh look another episode of Night Vale" on my tumblr dash isn't helping, either. Bye bye, Tumblr. I can't be having with any of this shit today, no pity nor poking, I have work to do.

Okay, so. By the numbers then. Gods and Monsters went out today, I could do more work promoting it so I don't whine so much about how no one cares but I have other shit to do, so, later, maybe. I need to get two chapters of Gods and Monsters written this week so I'm not struggling to keep up after D*C. I need to code this week's chapter, that's pretty easy. I have How To Train Your Dragon tweet-along tonight, that should be good for getting at least the wig finished, maybe the Huntress costume to stitch back down and figure out if/how I can improve that white stripe towards the bottom. Ugh. And I should pin Faye Valentine, though pinning is probably all I'll get done during the movie. After that, for tasks to be fit in whenever I have time, hooks and eyes need to be bought and sewn at least to the Huntress cloak. I thought there was something else I needed to sew it to, but I can't remember now. And... no, there's more to do, but I just need to make sure it's on the list, not do it tonight. I need to make Huntress's belt, remake Silk Spectre and Cheetara's entire costume STILL, that's on the list for this weekend. Actually this weekend should be nothing but writing work and blog work and Cheetara/Silk Spectre.

WRITING WORK. Oh dear god. It's not even a list I have to keep other than in my head right now, it mostly consists of format and read over Black Ice, promo copy for Black Ice, set it up for publication. Kink Bingo and Gods and Monsters and Sandborn and blogwork but there is SO MUCH OF IT. It's actually a minor miracle I haven't gotten tired of either Black Ice or Gods and Monsters by now. I've hit the point of "oh god no one cares about this shit but me," but I haven't gotten tired of it yet. That's a good sign, right?

Head spinning. Too many damn things to do, not enough time. If I could take another week off of work maybe I could get everything done but, no, day job. Which means the next three weeks plus need to be scheduled extra efficiently and argh. Frustrated. Tired. Nowhere to go but to keep moving and fail better.

Crossposts: http://kittydesade.livejournal.com/1123177.html

( Gaeilge )

That's still coming easier than I expected, at least as far as writing goes. Pronunciation will still be a bitch. I should actually get another chair into the computer room and make a point of doing Pronunciator in the mornings or something. Freaking Irish with its long strings of vowels and pick one to pronounce and hope it's the right one. Argh.

I even managed to get a fair bit done last night! And at this point I think I'm just keeping the list of projects, or at least immediate steps to projects, up in a sticky post so I don't lose track of them with all the other ideas for other things I want to do. I seem to be physically incapable of sticking to any one organizational method, but at least I have some idea of when and how to switch things up. Right now I guess it's the big push through the latest of Black Ice, which leaves me a month to get the formatting done ulp. And augh. So much fucking editing/writing to do, so little goddamn time. But at least I'm creating a backlog of Gods and Monsters? Ish. Really freaking out, though.

... actually at this point I'm more freaking out about having it done on time than I am about having anything sell, so ... I actually like that better. Okay then!

And never mind the freaking out about costumes and Dragon*Con. That's all "Pfft. Pshaw. What body insecurity. I have writing deadlines to meet." I can't say as I recommend this method of dealing with what scares a person, but it's working for me at least. Keep moving and I don't have time to stop and think about insecurities of what I'm doing. Especially if part of keeping moving is making sure I do it all properly. So, okay. The next task, and the next, and the next. The next task and my intentions for today are a good 10 pages or so in Black Ice. Which should be do-able if work is as relatively quiet as I hope it will be. Yesterday was very quiet except for some school/camp orders, which made our sales good while still giving me time to write! I like that. More of that please. >.>

Crossposts: http://kittydesade.livejournal.com/1121007.html

( Gaeilge )

Yeah, that seems to occasion a need to review the goddamn verbal nouns in Irish since I can't make head nor tail of them yet. Because this book is arranged poorly. Argh.

Sleepy this morning. Getting a late start on everything. This irks me. It's irksome. And on the other hand it's my own damn fault for staying up past my bedtime last night. I was also going to make johnnycake this morning, but if I'm going to stagger around half awake I should not be near a hot skillet. So, yeah.

Today's intents are to get through more chunks of Gods and Monsters and outline that other new thing, and edit Blood in the Gutters and get that email done and out. I don't know how much of that I'm going to get done considering I don't know how much and what I'm going to get up of the Black Ice website. It seems like the closer I get to release day the more freaked out I get by the prospect of showing it to everyone and the more excuses I find to put it off and put it off. Predictably. So I'm fighting against that every step of the way and, argh. Panic panic panic.

And then last night I got randomly inspired for some Pacific Rim fanfiction, so there's that in progress. Too many writing tasks. But if I don't take my spinning to work I should be able to at least focus some on that in between work tasks, so. I guess it's just one word in front of the other, now. Bit by bit, and keeping moving.