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Apr. 4th, 2007 07:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesade... My BPAL imps shipped. I was actually thinking it'd take a little longer, but they shipped. Huh.
I keep thinking about what Leon said about living in fear. I guess there's more than one reason I kept Roy in TM so long, despite never really feeling the attachment. Last night I almost stabbed someone for ringing the doorbell at ten to midnight because I thought it was someone else. Crazy felon who burned his house down and now won't -- or wouldn't, I hope -- stop calling our house. He thinks he's entitled to help from the family that lives here. I think he's entitled to my knife in his ribs, but then I also have a semi-rational fear of him showing up at the door with a shotgun.
He got out... almost a week ago? Not quite that, we heard about it almost a week ago. The very next day he called the house several times. Either he's stopped calling or people have stopped telling me about it. I'm not sure which I prefer. I keep thinking I feel better, I'm calmer, more rational about it. And then someone rings the doorbell at 11.50 at night and I scream, start crying, and can't go to sleep for an hour or so.
The nightmares are fun. At least so far none of them's had me crying for half an hour after I wake up since that nuclear DC one. I can take my regular run of nightmares. I just get cranky from lack of sleep, and it's not like I don't have weird dreams half the time anyway.
Enough whining. You don't care about this shit. I don't care about this shit, and I wish to hell it would go away.
Been watching the Dresden Files. And reading the Dresden Files. I like book Dresden as much as tv Dresden. I like TV Bob better than book Bob, although that's possibly mostly because TV Bob is played by Terrence fucking Mann. I may have said this already. I had a crush on the guy when I was very small and wanted to be a dancer. I actually didn't think I'd see him in any DVD/TV medium other than A Chorus Line. HEEEE.
Also been watching Blood Ties. So far, not so much different from what I remember. Fitzroy's a little younger than I expected, not sure why, since I think he's supposed to have 'died' young. But.
What else is there to say? My focus hasn't been good for a while, but I've managed to get some things painted. Some things written. Query letters going out this week, on time, for the first time in three months. So there's that, I guess. Work today. I should try and get some writing done. Work's on a light schedule, good thing this isn't a month of two college loans coming due.
I keep thinking about what Leon said about living in fear. I guess there's more than one reason I kept Roy in TM so long, despite never really feeling the attachment. Last night I almost stabbed someone for ringing the doorbell at ten to midnight because I thought it was someone else. Crazy felon who burned his house down and now won't -- or wouldn't, I hope -- stop calling our house. He thinks he's entitled to help from the family that lives here. I think he's entitled to my knife in his ribs, but then I also have a semi-rational fear of him showing up at the door with a shotgun.
He got out... almost a week ago? Not quite that, we heard about it almost a week ago. The very next day he called the house several times. Either he's stopped calling or people have stopped telling me about it. I'm not sure which I prefer. I keep thinking I feel better, I'm calmer, more rational about it. And then someone rings the doorbell at 11.50 at night and I scream, start crying, and can't go to sleep for an hour or so.
The nightmares are fun. At least so far none of them's had me crying for half an hour after I wake up since that nuclear DC one. I can take my regular run of nightmares. I just get cranky from lack of sleep, and it's not like I don't have weird dreams half the time anyway.
Enough whining. You don't care about this shit. I don't care about this shit, and I wish to hell it would go away.
Been watching the Dresden Files. And reading the Dresden Files. I like book Dresden as much as tv Dresden. I like TV Bob better than book Bob, although that's possibly mostly because TV Bob is played by Terrence fucking Mann. I may have said this already. I had a crush on the guy when I was very small and wanted to be a dancer. I actually didn't think I'd see him in any DVD/TV medium other than A Chorus Line. HEEEE.
Also been watching Blood Ties. So far, not so much different from what I remember. Fitzroy's a little younger than I expected, not sure why, since I think he's supposed to have 'died' young. But.
What else is there to say? My focus hasn't been good for a while, but I've managed to get some things painted. Some things written. Query letters going out this week, on time, for the first time in three months. So there's that, I guess. Work today. I should try and get some writing done. Work's on a light schedule, good thing this isn't a month of two college loans coming due.