![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
(no subject)
Sep. 1st, 2020 10:15 pmGah. On the one hand, I feel better enough that I plowed through two labs and another interminable video today, and on the other hand both labs caused an undue amount of stress for something that didn't take as long to figure out as I thought. And on the other other hand (it's like counting legs, but worse) (long story) it's entirely possible that part of my malfunction is that it's in the 80s with 90% humidity for the next couple of days and probably, though I didn't look, for the last couple days too. I get really itchy when I can't breathe because the air is near liquid and my entire body feels like sweat-on-my-skin. Ugh. I'm not sure what part of all that was lingering mental scarring and what part was the weather.
But I did get back to classwork today. I did... um, for the sake of logging which I haven't done yet I did two labs and two readings, which is a third of what I want to get done in a day but one of those readings was an hour long video (ugh) and I've been unwell in the brainpan, so I'll take the win. Normally tomorrow I would take the day off but I think I'm going to try and get through some more lessons tomorrow anyway as well as do some house cleaning and some reading and relaxing.
I wrote! Yesterday. For the first time in, um, months? I've been feeling less and less like writing for at least the last two months, and being in an environment where I didn't feel comfortable talking about creative things, ideas, stories, and characters didn't help. I'm out of that now, and it took ten days or so but I made myself do some writing based on some half formed ideas based on, um. The Witcher score. Of all things. I'm not happy with it, I'm not enthused by it, but I did it. It happened. So those muscles are being stretched and we'll see if I can repeat the feat tonight. And if I post it. No promises.
I still need to pull together a bullet journal spread for September which, ugh. I suppose I can do the structure tonight and the doodles tomorrow. On the other hand I just told John Rogers on Twitter that you can't spell penis without pen (it made sense in context I SWEAR I wasn't randomly being dirty at him) so I think it's time for me to stop being social on the internet and just watch Netflix and read books and hide for a while.
But I did get back to classwork today. I did... um, for the sake of logging which I haven't done yet I did two labs and two readings, which is a third of what I want to get done in a day but one of those readings was an hour long video (ugh) and I've been unwell in the brainpan, so I'll take the win. Normally tomorrow I would take the day off but I think I'm going to try and get through some more lessons tomorrow anyway as well as do some house cleaning and some reading and relaxing.
I wrote! Yesterday. For the first time in, um, months? I've been feeling less and less like writing for at least the last two months, and being in an environment where I didn't feel comfortable talking about creative things, ideas, stories, and characters didn't help. I'm out of that now, and it took ten days or so but I made myself do some writing based on some half formed ideas based on, um. The Witcher score. Of all things. I'm not happy with it, I'm not enthused by it, but I did it. It happened. So those muscles are being stretched and we'll see if I can repeat the feat tonight. And if I post it. No promises.
I still need to pull together a bullet journal spread for September which, ugh. I suppose I can do the structure tonight and the doodles tomorrow. On the other hand I just told John Rogers on Twitter that you can't spell penis without pen (it made sense in context I SWEAR I wasn't randomly being dirty at him) so I think it's time for me to stop being social on the internet and just watch Netflix and read books and hide for a while.