kittydesade | Jul. 28th, 2014

( Gaeilge )

So, I did get a lot of stuff done this weekend! The boy cut the grass, I got the house picked up, a bunch of mint trimmed and extracts set in and herbs hanging and ran the laundry and pre-made a bunch of sauces which may turn out to be the best thing ever. Chopped veggies. Did stuff.

Then this morning I get into the car to pool with the aunt to work and find out my Mom's in the hospital. Oh goodie.

(Then I got a call from DC saying that Mom was out of the hospital as of twenty minutes or so ago, so, okay.)

I can't take this. I mean, I can, but I don't want to. I've hit the point where frustration leads to tears in about 10 minutes, and my patience has worn thinner than spider silk. I got forwarded an email with the gory medical details, including "X-ray showed mass on lungs." I don't want to hear about any masses on the lungs! I mean, an X-ray, it might well be the fluid buildup, but my grandfather just died of cancer a few months ago I don't want to fucking hear it.

Anyway. She's out of the hospital, she's on antibiotics, with luck this will all be over in two weeks (and she's also neglected to say she was planning on flying to Peru in august, which that I find more acceptable, but I doubt she should go right now) and she can be back to counting the days till her retirement. And I can breathe again.

Fucking hell, universe. Foot off my throat.

Currently at:
p.108 on Twilight Watch/
first lectures on fundamentals of biology

The only problem with all of this is that I want to get some writing done tonight, and I still have a splitting headache. Actually, I want to get a lot of writing done tonight, but if this headache doesn't ease back I may just have to curl up and blearily stare at videos.

At some point I really will collate all these links into a big page or blog post or spreadsheet or something for dissemination. Right now I'm mostly just, ooh, basic intro to computer science course, I could use some refresher. Ooh, intro to immunology course, Helix season two here I come. Or sometimes just plain, ooh, my life sucks, what's something I can read about/study online. Here we go. Actually I think this is also my equivalent of the boy's downloading all these nature programs and watching them. Because now that I've gotten home, am ensconsed on the couch, and attempting to write, he's put on a program about fruit.

Yes, we did in fact tackle the great Gros Michel dieoff of the banana, and then the boy proceeded to be amused at me because of my Steve Rogers fetish.

I guess as far as stress problems go, stress course taking isn't the worst of it. Especially since I already had the fighting stress-shopping and stress-eating thing earlier today. Made the will check on the one, failed the will check on the other but did manage to limit myself to a small milkshake. It was worth every damn sip and I doubt one milkshake after some healthy eating over the weekend and some healthy eating otherwise is going to kill me.

Still want chocolate though. Still shoving grapes into my mouth instead. Itty progress. Healthier choices.