"On an evening such as this it's hard to tell if I exist"

Oogh. Maybe I've been a little too productive. Right now I don't want to do anything, just want to sit down and veg. Probably also has something to do with most of the projects I'd wanted to do today sort of collapsing. Like a flan! In a cupboard!

Gyah. So tired.

At least I have a promising stack of books in front of me for that Victoriana writing thingie project thing. At least some things are going right. I have to go to training tomorrow. Stupid asinine training. I hate training. I hate it soooo much. I can't wait till I can finish with this stupid training and just... uugh. It makes me want to bite something. Them and their happy high-fives nad their happy happy music and... argh. I swear, some day I'm going to bring in something weird. Like Cowboy Bebop jazz. Or better yet, Disturbed.

Ugh. It's a job, I guess. Maybe it'll get better once we get past the initial training phase. I just have to keep in mind that, hey, it's a paycheck. And I can put up with a lot for a paycheck. I think. I hope. At least I won't be slipping into that world totally alone (she said, referencing Absolute Beginners). If I have to go in to work to get tortured, at least I have the comfort of knowing that my sailor boy's with me. And hating it as much as I am every step of the way.

Let's see. If I get to bed at 2 tonight, I can actually get up at 9 and still have a decent amount of sleep. And then maybe I'll actually be able to get something done before I have to go off for training. Yay. Ugh. But yay.

Nothing much else to say really, just complaining. I guess I feel sort of blah now that I'm not on my crazy productive kick anymore. Or maybe I really do just need to go to bed. Maybe I'll be more productive tomorrow morning. Yeah. That's it.

"This is hell, captain. And you are its chief damned soul."

General asshats
Circle I Limbo

WASPs
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Republicans
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

PWP Writers
Circle IV Rolling Weights

Idiot Fangirls/boys
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Mary Sues
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

People Who Talk at the Theatre
Circle VII Burning Sands

George Bush
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Child Molestors
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

This amused me so much. Look! I even have my special hell!

Actually, this is Jaguar Kitty's hell Mark II. I designed the first one with what was given to see how the process went. I like this one better.

Feeling much better now that I've had some sleep, which just goes to show I should go to bed when I say I'm going to. I guess this is what comes with living a relatively healthy... healthier... lifestyle. You have to go to bed on time or you get grumpy and depressed. What a bummer. Here I thought being an adult meant you could go to bed whenever you want. And eat cookie dough for breakfast. :p

Hah! Flipping through this dictionary of world history. Some of these things are really rather cute. Like the quotes... "History is the sum total of things that could have been avoided." -- Konrad Adenauer. I wish I'd known that one when I was still in college.

Blah de da. Still not quite awake yet. And, once again, probably running out of actual food to eat. Only this time, ha ha! I have money with which to buy groceries. Which I should probably do eventually, after I actually run out of food to eat. And, ugh, I should also do the dishes. And shower. After my ex leaves, since he's such a pillock, he'd actually go into my room while I was showering and probably take anything he thought was his, or thought he could get away with. I really need to move out. Soon, my pretty, oh yes. We hates him.

It's really bad when I'm talking like Gollum.

Oooh. Just looking through this dictionary of world history.. I need to scan in some of this. This looks incredibly useful. It has maps! Of the world as it was way back when. Or at least Africa. Ooh! There's a map of Manchu China. Hmmm.

La dum da da de. Wednesday should be free, Thursday, Friday I have training again. Ugh. Although that'll probably all get taken over by something that stupid Primerica wants me to do for training. This ought to be fun. Not. Still, I could get to like having this kind of part time job. It's not that time consuming, and it seems like it might actually pay all the bills. The only problem will be, they don't take out taxes. So, ugh. I have to do some more solid bookkeeping than I have been doing. Oh well. That'll start mattering when I actually start getting paid. *eyeroll* Stupid training.

Okay, the idiot's gone, so it's off for a shower and then.. hmm. Some note-taking and breakfast. Or some coding and breakfast. We'll see. Ooh. And Bab5. Definitely Bab5.

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I will not kill my boss's boss. I will not kill my boss's boss. I will not kill that ultimate WASP hopped up overly cheerful obnoxiously racially challanged ass. I will not kill the man who was lecturing today on how to treat a client like a moron. I ... oh hell. I'm so in the wrong business. The whole building makes me want to hurl.

Well, I'm home now. Back in my safe little apartment with my teddy bears and my wonderfully non-judgmental books and my Queer Eye for the Straight Guy that cruelest_month turned me on to. You're such a bad, bad girl. But I can't help it, they're so adorable. And Carson is such a doll. He remimds me of a kid I went to high school with. I want him for my living room. Just to sit and talk with me.

So, the history summation project is well underway, and it looks like the 1860s to the 1920s are pretty good. I'm not sure how that's going to end up, but it may be largely dependant on what country is what... or what continent. Because, as wild_huntress rightly pointed out, the 1920s in the US were a lot different from the preceeding. But in Africa, say, the colonial era didn't end till.. Hell. Definitely not until recently. So... bleh. I'll just do the summation there, and then figure it out after I've got the whole over... not overview. What the hell... what am I doing. After I've got all the seedlings of notes. That didn't make sense either. ARGH!

Okay. My base book is a giant melee weapon of a dictionary of World History. I'm grabbing every entry between 1860 and 1920... and putting them all in a bunch of cheap spiral notebooks. SO.. then those will get sorted into countries. And then once I have those I'll be seeing the exact dates of each country, or country group.

Yeah. I can do this. Argh. It's like being back in school. I should get course credit for this, dammit!

I love my boyfriend. Just thought I'd say that.

Hrrm. What else what else what else. I have a new to-do list. I've had my shower, because since I'm just [TMI alert!] starting my period. Right int he middle of training. Ugh. and I'm going to have my snack soon.

Life, despite the job of doom, is actually pretty good.