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Dec. 12th, 2023 03:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeOkay. Well. On Monday I got the call from the heating people that the part either had come in or was on its way in in some verifiable capacity, and was Wednesday morning all right to fix the heat, and obviously I said yes because YES PLEASE GIVE US OUR CLIMATE CONTROL BACK. To a greater degree than we have now, space heaters and all. And I already had a therapy appointment on Thursday and a root canal on Friday and now I have an additional potentially very good thing on Thursday afternoon and it's all either good to neutral but also I am feeling extremely overwhelmed by Things to Do. And a need to be an Adult Human. Who interacts with people in adult human ways and not oversharing or over... what's the opposite of oversharing. Over aggressing?
I'm tired just looking at my schedule for the week ahead, never mind managing it. I think part of that is that it's fucking freezing in the house and if we didn't have so many cats I'd just spend the day in a coffee shop on my laptop or something else, but I want to make sure they're okay. So we all sit and suffer in our space heated home, as my spoons freeze and crack and crumble away. Brr.
I dare say probably on Wednesday after the house starts warming up again I'll feel more up to Thursday and Friday. And then once we've gotten the heating fixed we can consider getting a new washer (it had another power blip the other day) and start shopping around for new cars and so on. Fixing all the less urgent problems. Developing all the less urgent developments. Improving things.
Improving myself, I've managed to be pretty consistent with exercise, writing, languages, in a way I haven't I think since the pandemic started. I'm not sure what changed, the languages have always limped along but the writing kicked off first and now the exercise. Not sure what's going on with me or what caused the sudden shift, but I guess I'm enjoying it. It's hard to find enjoyment right now with so many things cold and broken. I was enjoying it before we lost heat in the house! And I'm rather enjoying that I'm kind of limping along and keeping it up even without heat in the house. Not entirely sure how I'm managing, I think on sheer stubbornness and having a job that allows me to rearrange things to take it easier on myself, such as doing work on my laptop or letting my boss know I'm in a Situation and to take it easy on me. But... well. Keeping up these habits makes me feel good. It makes me feel like I'm back to sculpting myself into the me I want to be.
At any rate. Less than twenty four hours to go before we have heat back on in the house! It'll be fine. We'll get through this. There will, soon, be better days than this.
I'm tired just looking at my schedule for the week ahead, never mind managing it. I think part of that is that it's fucking freezing in the house and if we didn't have so many cats I'd just spend the day in a coffee shop on my laptop or something else, but I want to make sure they're okay. So we all sit and suffer in our space heated home, as my spoons freeze and crack and crumble away. Brr.
I dare say probably on Wednesday after the house starts warming up again I'll feel more up to Thursday and Friday. And then once we've gotten the heating fixed we can consider getting a new washer (it had another power blip the other day) and start shopping around for new cars and so on. Fixing all the less urgent problems. Developing all the less urgent developments. Improving things.
Improving myself, I've managed to be pretty consistent with exercise, writing, languages, in a way I haven't I think since the pandemic started. I'm not sure what changed, the languages have always limped along but the writing kicked off first and now the exercise. Not sure what's going on with me or what caused the sudden shift, but I guess I'm enjoying it. It's hard to find enjoyment right now with so many things cold and broken. I was enjoying it before we lost heat in the house! And I'm rather enjoying that I'm kind of limping along and keeping it up even without heat in the house. Not entirely sure how I'm managing, I think on sheer stubbornness and having a job that allows me to rearrange things to take it easier on myself, such as doing work on my laptop or letting my boss know I'm in a Situation and to take it easy on me. But... well. Keeping up these habits makes me feel good. It makes me feel like I'm back to sculpting myself into the me I want to be.
At any rate. Less than twenty four hours to go before we have heat back on in the house! It'll be fine. We'll get through this. There will, soon, be better days than this.