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Jan. 7th, 2021 11:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeI got one day of doing better and then I got up, checked some stuff, contemplated doing some code anyway before the study group (which turned out not to be yesterday, thankfully) and, well, y'all know the rest.
(On the off chance that this ends up being a digital record without context, the rest is that about a thousand white supremacists with a lower-class rural aesthetic and enough money to travel to DC with a shitload of armaments stormed the US Capitol building, took it over, forced Congress to evacuate and/or hide in place, at least some of them were evacuated through the nuclear? tunnels, things were looted, papers and sensitive information viewed, several people died, several more people may yet die, and at least three different police departments in the District of Columbia just let it fucking happen.)
Anyway. Yeah. I am not okay. I'm tired and angry and a number of other feelings besides, but what can you do when you don't actually live there any longer and your Congressfolk don't have the morals or empathy of a pet rock?
Today was quieter, and therefore better in one respect anyway. Some charges have been filed, though ... they were right there. The Hoover building isn't far from the Capitol, the FBI could have strolled on over and started ziptieing people to those giant fencing oh whatever. There might be consequences for a few folks. Some of the political fallout is promising, some is typically spineless. We'll see what happens in the next few days.
I went to a study group today and the guy was very sweet and went over a couple elaborate things in just enough detail for me to get it all in and just quickly enough to fill up the time, so that was excellent and distracting. After that I didn't get much done until dinner and Burn Notice, I spent a lot of time cross-referencing watercolor pigments because... my brain just didn't want to do any work, I guess. But that's promising for being able to sink into code and not get frustrated or feel useless and stupid tomorrow, and also for getting everything done tomorrow with minimal hassle.
I don't know what to say, I've been doing pretty well keeping up with things in the rest of my life, it's just. Yesterday was fucking awful and today was the adrenaline hangover, plus waiting tensely to find out what the consequences would be. I guess we're still finding out what the consequences will be. I've got *cough* worth of watercolors in a shopping cart waiting for me to pull the trigger on that, based not solely off the most recent paletteful packs box and an hour's worth of playing around with the contents, I've worked with watercolors before. I like working with watercolors! But I haven't used tube watercolors before, so I'm trying to calm down and not stress purchase it, but play with the watercolors some more and then see.
Mostly I'm just tired. We're all tired. A lot of us are scared, some of us are angry, I think we're all rotating out the scared and angry by turns but everyone I know is exhausted. It's so goddamn aggravating. I didn't expect much different, but it's still aggravating to have held out even that modicum of hope left and then to have people fucking rioting because they don't get to be hateful smug superior people anymore with impunity.
(On the off chance that this ends up being a digital record without context, the rest is that about a thousand white supremacists with a lower-class rural aesthetic and enough money to travel to DC with a shitload of armaments stormed the US Capitol building, took it over, forced Congress to evacuate and/or hide in place, at least some of them were evacuated through the nuclear? tunnels, things were looted, papers and sensitive information viewed, several people died, several more people may yet die, and at least three different police departments in the District of Columbia just let it fucking happen.)
Anyway. Yeah. I am not okay. I'm tired and angry and a number of other feelings besides, but what can you do when you don't actually live there any longer and your Congressfolk don't have the morals or empathy of a pet rock?
Today was quieter, and therefore better in one respect anyway. Some charges have been filed, though ... they were right there. The Hoover building isn't far from the Capitol, the FBI could have strolled on over and started ziptieing people to those giant fencing oh whatever. There might be consequences for a few folks. Some of the political fallout is promising, some is typically spineless. We'll see what happens in the next few days.
I went to a study group today and the guy was very sweet and went over a couple elaborate things in just enough detail for me to get it all in and just quickly enough to fill up the time, so that was excellent and distracting. After that I didn't get much done until dinner and Burn Notice, I spent a lot of time cross-referencing watercolor pigments because... my brain just didn't want to do any work, I guess. But that's promising for being able to sink into code and not get frustrated or feel useless and stupid tomorrow, and also for getting everything done tomorrow with minimal hassle.
I don't know what to say, I've been doing pretty well keeping up with things in the rest of my life, it's just. Yesterday was fucking awful and today was the adrenaline hangover, plus waiting tensely to find out what the consequences would be. I guess we're still finding out what the consequences will be. I've got *cough* worth of watercolors in a shopping cart waiting for me to pull the trigger on that, based not solely off the most recent paletteful packs box and an hour's worth of playing around with the contents, I've worked with watercolors before. I like working with watercolors! But I haven't used tube watercolors before, so I'm trying to calm down and not stress purchase it, but play with the watercolors some more and then see.
Mostly I'm just tired. We're all tired. A lot of us are scared, some of us are angry, I think we're all rotating out the scared and angry by turns but everyone I know is exhausted. It's so goddamn aggravating. I didn't expect much different, but it's still aggravating to have held out even that modicum of hope left and then to have people fucking rioting because they don't get to be hateful smug superior people anymore with impunity.
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Date: 2021-01-08 05:52 am (UTC)This.
:hugs offered:
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Date: 2021-01-08 04:06 pm (UTC)The varying LEO agencies were all being RIDICULOUSLY over-cautious about not fucking with the jurisdiction of the Capitol Police, and they're all going to suffer for it now.