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Jan. 4th, 2021 06:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeI am so tired. I didn't sleep well last night, as in I woke up every hour and a half or so, and then I got up and was relatively fine until 10, when I passed back out again. Got up, did an afternoon class block with what I thought was a reasonable amount of coding given the pounding headache and roaring engine across the street. I'm seriously considering moving my coding blocks to the middle of the night if this shit keeps up. And now I'm up at past midnight again because in addition to today being rather shot with noise and everything, the boy texted saying that there were 11 covid patients on his floor alone and they were rigging up makeshift negative pressure rooms.
I really should go to bed. I just started googling regular customers of the store out of a morbid curiosity if they were still with us or if covid had gotten them too. (All the ones I googled have thus far survived, thankfully.)
I really wasn't doing that badly until that last message. I got my Wilton's frosting tips today, including the proper one to fill cupcakes so maybe when we go grocery shopping, or if I have to send the boy out with a list, I'll get more ingredients for chocolate filled cupcakes. And spike it with some fucking booze. I'm seriously considering now sending a friend of ours who drives around more for his work (he's a service tech) to the ABC store to pick up some booze for me, but I do have kahlua, and I could make kahlua chocolate cupcakes. And test out my new piping skills. I've done way more stress buying than I should, but on the other hand I also barely bought anything with my Christmas money, so I have money to stress buy things. And half the stress buying was materials to make trinkets to sell with my books, if I can ever focus on selling books again and not compromising my unemployment. Life is just really goddamn weird right now.
I called Mom to check in, say hi, and she once again assured me that she thought I would get a job quickly, a good job, and that the tech field was here to stay, and if I didn't like my first job I could study a couple more languages and pick them up easily and move in a couple years, that there was good mobility. She's right. I'm thinking otherwise because it's almost one in the morning and I've been unemployed for coming up on a year, it's just weird right now. And it's almost one in the morning so it's hard to see anything hopeful.
I'm a bit surprised I'm not doing worse, really. Considering.
Okay. But I am going to do a couple more languages, do some PT, and then go to bed and if I'm still awake, do the rest of my language review since it's just review today. And tomorrow maybe it'll be better. Or less noisy with the engines.
I really should go to bed. I just started googling regular customers of the store out of a morbid curiosity if they were still with us or if covid had gotten them too. (All the ones I googled have thus far survived, thankfully.)
I really wasn't doing that badly until that last message. I got my Wilton's frosting tips today, including the proper one to fill cupcakes so maybe when we go grocery shopping, or if I have to send the boy out with a list, I'll get more ingredients for chocolate filled cupcakes. And spike it with some fucking booze. I'm seriously considering now sending a friend of ours who drives around more for his work (he's a service tech) to the ABC store to pick up some booze for me, but I do have kahlua, and I could make kahlua chocolate cupcakes. And test out my new piping skills. I've done way more stress buying than I should, but on the other hand I also barely bought anything with my Christmas money, so I have money to stress buy things. And half the stress buying was materials to make trinkets to sell with my books, if I can ever focus on selling books again and not compromising my unemployment. Life is just really goddamn weird right now.
I called Mom to check in, say hi, and she once again assured me that she thought I would get a job quickly, a good job, and that the tech field was here to stay, and if I didn't like my first job I could study a couple more languages and pick them up easily and move in a couple years, that there was good mobility. She's right. I'm thinking otherwise because it's almost one in the morning and I've been unemployed for coming up on a year, it's just weird right now. And it's almost one in the morning so it's hard to see anything hopeful.
I'm a bit surprised I'm not doing worse, really. Considering.
Okay. But I am going to do a couple more languages, do some PT, and then go to bed and if I'm still awake, do the rest of my language review since it's just review today. And tomorrow maybe it'll be better. Or less noisy with the engines.
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