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Jun. 26th, 2020 12:58 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeI didn't actually have a journal entry but then at almost 1am I realized it has been a fucking DAY off and on and I should write down a list of stressors.
SO one thing that I did do was scream like a velociraptor and launch myself into sending a follow-up email to the tech school (which it turned out was actually me checking my email multiple times a day and somehow MISSING THE ENTIRE FOLLOW UP EMAIL OH MY GOD I HAVE SO MUCH SHAME I sent a very apologetic email) and long story short I have a phone meeting with an admissions rep. So that's fine, I'm trying to put that off until that phone meeting, in the beginning of July, to worry about.
It turns out I can do this because shortly after that I called my Mom, left a message on her phone, called my Aunt, left a message on her phone at home, called my Aunt at work aaaaaaand she lapsed into Spanish to talk to me about the school. Which no one else at work but me speaks. So ... I don't know what the fuck is going on there. She could just be avoiding conflict with the other extremely dramatic and prone to having flounces Aunt, which, valid, or she could be avoiding the possible fact that she's been nudging me to get a different job in order to use me as an excuse to shut the store down entirely because SHE wants to retire. I know everyone else talks about retiring all the time, I also know that within these couple months of quarantine people at the store seem to be going stir crazy and want to reopen more. They're not, because they're also SENSIBLE and are just keeping open for curbside pickup and mail order, but they want to. And... and I don't know. I don't know what's going on and it didn't bother me until I had the impression that my one Aunt was hiding things from my other Aunts and uncles and *SCREAM*
So, that happened. Then... something. I'm not entirely sure what, I've only been on the edges all day but apparently there has been a Shitstorm among a lot of specfic authors I know, there's a list of names I don't feel like going into it now. Some I find entirely likely, some I think are more guilty of bad judgment and association, and some I just want to scream because I've heard this song before and it doesn't end well. The testimonies range from single people describing specific events to people claiming to have information about this list of names but not describing the information yet, to multiple people describing the things that these authors did to them on this occasions. And it's just been a tire fire of OH LOOK HERE'S ANOTHER ASSHOLE.
I think that may be all the stressors for the day but each of these has taken up multiple hours, at least two. And I am le edgy.
I mean other than that it's been a good day! Plants are doing well, I did some writing, I played some game, I did a bit of tidying. I painted my nails. It wasn't a bad day personally. It's just been a day of way too much negative information and negative things happening to people who are not me but who I am aware of more than people in general. And potential future negative things. And argh.
SO one thing that I did do was scream like a velociraptor and launch myself into sending a follow-up email to the tech school (which it turned out was actually me checking my email multiple times a day and somehow MISSING THE ENTIRE FOLLOW UP EMAIL OH MY GOD I HAVE SO MUCH SHAME I sent a very apologetic email) and long story short I have a phone meeting with an admissions rep. So that's fine, I'm trying to put that off until that phone meeting, in the beginning of July, to worry about.
It turns out I can do this because shortly after that I called my Mom, left a message on her phone, called my Aunt, left a message on her phone at home, called my Aunt at work aaaaaaand she lapsed into Spanish to talk to me about the school. Which no one else at work but me speaks. So ... I don't know what the fuck is going on there. She could just be avoiding conflict with the other extremely dramatic and prone to having flounces Aunt, which, valid, or she could be avoiding the possible fact that she's been nudging me to get a different job in order to use me as an excuse to shut the store down entirely because SHE wants to retire. I know everyone else talks about retiring all the time, I also know that within these couple months of quarantine people at the store seem to be going stir crazy and want to reopen more. They're not, because they're also SENSIBLE and are just keeping open for curbside pickup and mail order, but they want to. And... and I don't know. I don't know what's going on and it didn't bother me until I had the impression that my one Aunt was hiding things from my other Aunts and uncles and *SCREAM*
So, that happened. Then... something. I'm not entirely sure what, I've only been on the edges all day but apparently there has been a Shitstorm among a lot of specfic authors I know, there's a list of names I don't feel like going into it now. Some I find entirely likely, some I think are more guilty of bad judgment and association, and some I just want to scream because I've heard this song before and it doesn't end well. The testimonies range from single people describing specific events to people claiming to have information about this list of names but not describing the information yet, to multiple people describing the things that these authors did to them on this occasions. And it's just been a tire fire of OH LOOK HERE'S ANOTHER ASSHOLE.
I think that may be all the stressors for the day but each of these has taken up multiple hours, at least two. And I am le edgy.
I mean other than that it's been a good day! Plants are doing well, I did some writing, I played some game, I did a bit of tidying. I painted my nails. It wasn't a bad day personally. It's just been a day of way too much negative information and negative things happening to people who are not me but who I am aware of more than people in general. And potential future negative things. And argh.
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