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Jun. 16th, 2020 02:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeOkay. We'll use the tag Not Booyah At All for stressors, that's a good existing tag. Maybe if I have enough in one short period of time I can use something like "naming the wolves individually" or something because holy hell, it's been a pack of wolves kind of a past few months.
More positive things that I've been up to, starting with the garden. Holy shit. Apparently the only reasons my plants didn't do well is because I didn't have the energy around writing and my day job to pay proper attention in a leisurely fashion. I'm not doing too much different, except that I have more time to fit in the planting, the seed starting, etc. But in the day to day stuff once it's gotten started it's basically 15 minutes of watering once a day, and 20-30 minutes of weeding on Saturday and Sunday. And I have, um. The aforementioned endless tomatoes, including some new tomato plants my aunt left with me. I'm hoping to have tomatillos sprouding soon. The peppers I planted are, almost all of them, very healthy. Mycabbages lettuce are dying a sad and painful death, I don't know what I'm doing wrong, I may try putting them out in the world and see how well that works since none of the animals that usually eat them have been coming up to the porch I think It's still a bit disheartening. But there's the tomatoes, the cucumber, the blueberry rootstock is putting up vigorous new green shoots, the existing blueberry plants are doing well, one elderberry plant looked like it was trying to die at which point that got moved further into the stoop where it gets sun for less time in the day and that and some blood for the blood got may have saved it? But just in case I got a third elderberry oops. The goji berries are doing good. The herbs are doing great. So many plants do I have, not many flowers, but lots of food. It's honestly a relief to know I don't kill things out of ... being me, just out of being me in that I overextend and forget I don't have infinite energy.
I forget also whether or not I said I'd picked up cross-stitch again so, I picked up cross-stitch! Mainly because a friend brought to my attention that the Mattis quote: "Be polite, be professional, but have a plan to kill everybody you meet" was a cross-stitch pattern and I thought, you know. I should do that. So I did that. I messed up doing that! But I did that. And then ... actually no, I think I'm still on my second one. But I'm working on my second one (a little less quickly than my first, stuff has gotten out of control in a stuff on my desk sense but also in a stress sense) and it's almost down to the lettering, and I have the next six or so projects planned and materials purchased. So, yay!
I've been writing. In a fit of pique and relevant to recent discussions on how people writing very rough drafts of porn and just selling it on Amazon are making more money than people writing actual novels doing the actual novelist thing I've decided that instead of trying to make myself work through the pile-on of stress I'm going to write a PWP fanfic, file the serial numbers off, give it a quick once over and give it to A for a copy edit and just post the fucker on Amazon because who cares anymore anyway. (Yes, I still care, I just do not have the energy for anything the way I used to.) So that's happening. Although after I take today to do a thorough house cleaning and get that stressor/reminder of stress away, I may try and balance working on that with working on my original projects. We'll see, as always.
As a semi-solution to the unemployment thing, and because my family has been on the verge of retirement for years now (although now that they've had a taste of what retirement is like I'm not as convinced as my one aunt that they will) this might be the final nail in the store's coffin, my Mom suggested paying to send me to the same boot camp as my cousin went to. It's a tech camp, you get your tuition back if you don't find a job after, and since it's a tech camp there's a larger possibility that I can find remote work. I was going to email them yesterday and see if they had an idea what the chances were, but then shit blew up, so it's now to "at some point this week." But it's certainly a possibility. I can't say coding or scripting was ever my first choice of job but I like to think I'd be reasonably good at it and have an aptitude for it, and I wouldn't mind it so very much. And the starting salary in tech is more than I make at the store, so if I can find a remote position it'd be great. I don't know what my job odds are, though. So... that part is very, very nervous making.
Fff things. I feel like you can tell I haven't been feeling my usual self because I haven't been wearing makeup, I haven't been playing around with lipstick and things, I haven't been wearing my jewelry. But that said, I re-dyed my reds at the middle? End? Shortly after my birthday in May, I remember that because I remember being disappointed that it wouldn't be freshly red for the zoom family chat. And I have an assload now of hair dye, a proportional assload of bleach, I am set to do my own hair coloring for a year in the case of the hair color and probably two years in the case of the bleach. I have a pair of hair shears and clips to hold my hair back so I can bleach, dye, or trim it. I have a proper hair dryer if/when I remember to use it, I have hair products for curling my hair and for nourishing it and for taking product out of it. And my makeup is stocked up so I should remember that I feel good when I look like I'm about to take the stage at a punk concert.
Circling back to gardening briefly, I am in love with my hori hori knife. It's a Japanese gardening tool that's straight edge, serrated edge, and trowel all in one due to the curve of the knife and it is JOY. I've done so much hacking down of annoying pokeberries, quick weeding, transplanting. It is a joy.
Trying to think what else has been going on. Have I mentioned I got into the Untamed finally? Because I did. The last few weeks of fannishness have all been about the Untamed and the pretty boys within. Pretty boys with skills, too, predictably for me I found out one of them is also a ballet dancer and sadly only has one or two performances and a class video online, but hnngh. He is quite good. And then another is an arts school kid who was in Les Mis, so outside of watching the show repeatedly I've been digging up that content. It's fun. It's joyful, and I take what joys I can get these days.
... that was a bit maudlin for something that's supposed to be a joyful post. Um. Oh! I've discovered the joys of listening to history lectures while I cross-stitch. That's also fun. And I've picked up Turkish on Duolingo, which is to say actually that I put one language down and replaced it with Turkish, under the urging of one of my new proto-friends (I've been told by people who Know that I make friends very slowly, and it's true, so... proto-friend for people with whom it's only a matter of time most likely) who is also learning Turkish and keeps temping me with fun facts about Turkish. They're evil, and all yelling about too many languages should be directed at them. >.>
Right. That's as much updating as I think everyone can manage for now. I'll try to be more assiduous about logging things here. For posterity if for no other reason even though there are other very good reasons, self. Pls remember.
More positive things that I've been up to, starting with the garden. Holy shit. Apparently the only reasons my plants didn't do well is because I didn't have the energy around writing and my day job to pay proper attention in a leisurely fashion. I'm not doing too much different, except that I have more time to fit in the planting, the seed starting, etc. But in the day to day stuff once it's gotten started it's basically 15 minutes of watering once a day, and 20-30 minutes of weeding on Saturday and Sunday. And I have, um. The aforementioned endless tomatoes, including some new tomato plants my aunt left with me. I'm hoping to have tomatillos sprouding soon. The peppers I planted are, almost all of them, very healthy. My
I forget also whether or not I said I'd picked up cross-stitch again so, I picked up cross-stitch! Mainly because a friend brought to my attention that the Mattis quote: "Be polite, be professional, but have a plan to kill everybody you meet" was a cross-stitch pattern and I thought, you know. I should do that. So I did that. I messed up doing that! But I did that. And then ... actually no, I think I'm still on my second one. But I'm working on my second one (a little less quickly than my first, stuff has gotten out of control in a stuff on my desk sense but also in a stress sense) and it's almost down to the lettering, and I have the next six or so projects planned and materials purchased. So, yay!
I've been writing. In a fit of pique and relevant to recent discussions on how people writing very rough drafts of porn and just selling it on Amazon are making more money than people writing actual novels doing the actual novelist thing I've decided that instead of trying to make myself work through the pile-on of stress I'm going to write a PWP fanfic, file the serial numbers off, give it a quick once over and give it to A for a copy edit and just post the fucker on Amazon because who cares anymore anyway. (Yes, I still care, I just do not have the energy for anything the way I used to.) So that's happening. Although after I take today to do a thorough house cleaning and get that stressor/reminder of stress away, I may try and balance working on that with working on my original projects. We'll see, as always.
As a semi-solution to the unemployment thing, and because my family has been on the verge of retirement for years now (although now that they've had a taste of what retirement is like I'm not as convinced as my one aunt that they will) this might be the final nail in the store's coffin, my Mom suggested paying to send me to the same boot camp as my cousin went to. It's a tech camp, you get your tuition back if you don't find a job after, and since it's a tech camp there's a larger possibility that I can find remote work. I was going to email them yesterday and see if they had an idea what the chances were, but then shit blew up, so it's now to "at some point this week." But it's certainly a possibility. I can't say coding or scripting was ever my first choice of job but I like to think I'd be reasonably good at it and have an aptitude for it, and I wouldn't mind it so very much. And the starting salary in tech is more than I make at the store, so if I can find a remote position it'd be great. I don't know what my job odds are, though. So... that part is very, very nervous making.
Fff things. I feel like you can tell I haven't been feeling my usual self because I haven't been wearing makeup, I haven't been playing around with lipstick and things, I haven't been wearing my jewelry. But that said, I re-dyed my reds at the middle? End? Shortly after my birthday in May, I remember that because I remember being disappointed that it wouldn't be freshly red for the zoom family chat. And I have an assload now of hair dye, a proportional assload of bleach, I am set to do my own hair coloring for a year in the case of the hair color and probably two years in the case of the bleach. I have a pair of hair shears and clips to hold my hair back so I can bleach, dye, or trim it. I have a proper hair dryer if/when I remember to use it, I have hair products for curling my hair and for nourishing it and for taking product out of it. And my makeup is stocked up so I should remember that I feel good when I look like I'm about to take the stage at a punk concert.
Circling back to gardening briefly, I am in love with my hori hori knife. It's a Japanese gardening tool that's straight edge, serrated edge, and trowel all in one due to the curve of the knife and it is JOY. I've done so much hacking down of annoying pokeberries, quick weeding, transplanting. It is a joy.
Trying to think what else has been going on. Have I mentioned I got into the Untamed finally? Because I did. The last few weeks of fannishness have all been about the Untamed and the pretty boys within. Pretty boys with skills, too, predictably for me I found out one of them is also a ballet dancer and sadly only has one or two performances and a class video online, but hnngh. He is quite good. And then another is an arts school kid who was in Les Mis, so outside of watching the show repeatedly I've been digging up that content. It's fun. It's joyful, and I take what joys I can get these days.
... that was a bit maudlin for something that's supposed to be a joyful post. Um. Oh! I've discovered the joys of listening to history lectures while I cross-stitch. That's also fun. And I've picked up Turkish on Duolingo, which is to say actually that I put one language down and replaced it with Turkish, under the urging of one of my new proto-friends (I've been told by people who Know that I make friends very slowly, and it's true, so... proto-friend for people with whom it's only a matter of time most likely) who is also learning Turkish and keeps temping me with fun facts about Turkish. They're evil, and all yelling about too many languages should be directed at them. >.>
Right. That's as much updating as I think everyone can manage for now. I'll try to be more assiduous about logging things here. For posterity if for no other reason even though there are other very good reasons, self. Pls remember.
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Date: 2020-06-18 06:15 pm (UTC)(And inevitably writing more plot into the PWP than originally intended but I'm temperamentally incapable of drafting PWP to the end without plot tumors happening. I'll fix it in post.)
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