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Apr. 11th, 2019 09:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadePredictably sleepy after a good class, in which we had five people including me. There was Groot to teach, and Muscles with his usual "I can't do that" no, dude, it's not that you can't do that, it's that you focus on building muscle strength in a very specific way to the detriment of the flexibility needed for capoeira. Ahem. There was Groot, me, Muscles, New Guy Who Is Yet UnNicknamed, Old Guy Who Is Yet UnNicknamed, and New Girl. So it was a good, productive class! And then I was very tired. And I'm still very tired because I stayed up writing instead of going to bed early like a smart person.
I got a couple of short stories drafted? Almost done? In various stages of progression last night, and I got some novel drafting done even though I was exhausted when I got home. Which is pretty good. Especially the short stories, I was getting worried that I'd forgotten how to write a short story. I am going to read some shorts on Fireside to remember what short stories look like. And also to get an idea of what they're looking for. I feel more like a professional writer again, which is nice. Maybe tonight I'll pick up some habits again like, you know, guitar practice or languages.
I know it's the PMS talking but I wish I felt better about myself and my ability to keep in my language and music habits. I don't right now. I feel like I'm a failure at all those extra little courtesanly frills I try to teach myself, and it sucks. I know about persistent starting, I know I've been keeping up with languages even at the minimum with Duolingo, and I know the PMS does this to me, but knowing doesn't make the feeling go away, sadly. Le argh.
Still. Okay, no, self, you got a lot written today, and you got the stories posted and edited and that's going well. You can take a few minutes out, practice your guitar, write some, edit some, do your languages later. You can do this.
Graaagh I can't wait to be done with PMS. Both this time and for good. Worthless imbalance.
I got a couple of short stories drafted? Almost done? In various stages of progression last night, and I got some novel drafting done even though I was exhausted when I got home. Which is pretty good. Especially the short stories, I was getting worried that I'd forgotten how to write a short story. I am going to read some shorts on Fireside to remember what short stories look like. And also to get an idea of what they're looking for. I feel more like a professional writer again, which is nice. Maybe tonight I'll pick up some habits again like, you know, guitar practice or languages.
I know it's the PMS talking but I wish I felt better about myself and my ability to keep in my language and music habits. I don't right now. I feel like I'm a failure at all those extra little courtesanly frills I try to teach myself, and it sucks. I know about persistent starting, I know I've been keeping up with languages even at the minimum with Duolingo, and I know the PMS does this to me, but knowing doesn't make the feeling go away, sadly. Le argh.
Still. Okay, no, self, you got a lot written today, and you got the stories posted and edited and that's going well. You can take a few minutes out, practice your guitar, write some, edit some, do your languages later. You can do this.
Graaagh I can't wait to be done with PMS. Both this time and for good. Worthless imbalance.