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Jan. 1st, 2019 05:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeMildly annoyed at how slow I've been moving all day. I got up, did some languages in various ways, didn't exercise, and didn't clean and spent an annoying amount of time on the couch. I did get a chunk of the rest of the synopses done, so I have something to show for it. But it was like pulling teeth and it seemed like I couldn't get anything else done while I sat there dragging out word after word. And now I feel like I've wasted a free day. Ugh.
Double ugh because I'm reasonably sure that if I want a free day to sit on the couch and binge Downton Abbey I should, and anything else is caving in to the capitalist mindset that we're only equal to how productive we are blah blah blah. But then my brain says "you have so much to do and you didn't do any of it" and to that I say, eff you, brain. Ugh.
No, I did get things done. I got writing done, I got languages done. I got a bit of exercise done already and I'll get a bit more done before bed. I didn't get any cleaning done is probably the real reason I'm annoyed, especially with allegedly having a dinner party in a week and a bit and having mainlined Downton Abbey, which is not giving me realistic ideas of what a dinner party consists of.
Also it's still freezing in the office so Hindi will be handwritten today and you'll have to take my word for it that it got done. Beyond vocab. I might end up typing it up in the morning at this rate. Stupid old house with insufficient heating. (Only in some of the rooms. The rooms I pretty much live in are fine, but the office is brrr.)
Right. Anyway, I've got a couple hours left before bedtime and I'm finally awake. I resent that too. And I think, now that I type it out, I'm worried that a day of lounging on a couch and not having the energy or executive function to get up means my thyroid's packed it in again and I'll always be that way. But on the other hand I did a full day's work yesterday, got home, and did some writing things, and over the weekend after a day of capoeira and stopping off at work and then resting and such on Sunday I did a reasonably fair bit of cleaning, so maybe it's not that. And anyway nothing but a blood test can tell that so calm down, self. It's not unreasonable to take a day off.
Oy. Brains. Why do we even have these levers.
Double ugh because I'm reasonably sure that if I want a free day to sit on the couch and binge Downton Abbey I should, and anything else is caving in to the capitalist mindset that we're only equal to how productive we are blah blah blah. But then my brain says "you have so much to do and you didn't do any of it" and to that I say, eff you, brain. Ugh.
No, I did get things done. I got writing done, I got languages done. I got a bit of exercise done already and I'll get a bit more done before bed. I didn't get any cleaning done is probably the real reason I'm annoyed, especially with allegedly having a dinner party in a week and a bit and having mainlined Downton Abbey, which is not giving me realistic ideas of what a dinner party consists of.
Also it's still freezing in the office so Hindi will be handwritten today and you'll have to take my word for it that it got done. Beyond vocab. I might end up typing it up in the morning at this rate. Stupid old house with insufficient heating. (Only in some of the rooms. The rooms I pretty much live in are fine, but the office is brrr.)
Right. Anyway, I've got a couple hours left before bedtime and I'm finally awake. I resent that too. And I think, now that I type it out, I'm worried that a day of lounging on a couch and not having the energy or executive function to get up means my thyroid's packed it in again and I'll always be that way. But on the other hand I did a full day's work yesterday, got home, and did some writing things, and over the weekend after a day of capoeira and stopping off at work and then resting and such on Sunday I did a reasonably fair bit of cleaning, so maybe it's not that. And anyway nothing but a blood test can tell that so calm down, self. It's not unreasonable to take a day off.
Oy. Brains. Why do we even have these levers.
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