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Oct. 25th, 2017 10:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeOh this is not good I don't like this. It turns out I didn't manage to get out of the packing frenzy yesterday without pulling something, that something being a muscle in my right shoulderblade area that is somehow connected to a deep breathing muscle, making it hard to breathe deeply, meaning all I want to do is breathe deeply in that tonguing-the-toothache kind of way. Meaning I can't breathe deeply, or rather I could but it hurts and my body's reflex is to make the muscles stop doing the thing that hurts, meaning my body's immediate response is ASTHMA ATTACK ALL SYSTEMS ALERT RED ALERT RED ALERT ASTHMA NO AIR NO AIR.
Not fucking helpful, body.
We'll see if I make it to class tonight. I'm feeling very exhausted and grumpy but I'm also feeling very inadequate because we now have two construction workers in class and my brain is all look if they can do a long day's work on a construction site and then come to class you can do a day's work shipping and go to class the next day. Though I wonder if I would still feel this disinclined if I hadn't wrenched something in my hurry hurry pack pack frenzy. And now it's all second-guessing from here. The painkillers were working for an hour, but now it's twinging again in the way that could be nothing or could be impending doom again.
The truck is loaded for the fiber fair though which means I don't have to fucking do anything more until it all needs to be packed up again on Sunday fucking yay.
Also I swear I have never been more aware of how skewed I am in terms of pure writing coherent fiction sentences speed as when the "boss battle" on 4 The Words is 2100 words to write in 9ish hours and I burst out laughing. At least I won't get bored or frustrated by an inability to do things but oh man. So far my biggest problem isn't with the site but is with figuring out what I'm going to write and trying not to have umpteen random projects going at once. Although once I've done background I might use it to finish some of the random WIPS I have floating around in my folders.
First, though, getting the background written. Getting some edits done now that things are on pause for a bit and I might have fucking energy ever. If I skip capoeira, getting some shit trimmed around the house so kids can come up for Halloween. (And getting some Halloween decorations out.) And just generally relax, collapse, craft, read. Something. Rest. Maybe I should take off capoeira on that basis alone. Argh.
Not fucking helpful, body.
We'll see if I make it to class tonight. I'm feeling very exhausted and grumpy but I'm also feeling very inadequate because we now have two construction workers in class and my brain is all look if they can do a long day's work on a construction site and then come to class you can do a day's work shipping and go to class the next day. Though I wonder if I would still feel this disinclined if I hadn't wrenched something in my hurry hurry pack pack frenzy. And now it's all second-guessing from here. The painkillers were working for an hour, but now it's twinging again in the way that could be nothing or could be impending doom again.
The truck is loaded for the fiber fair though which means I don't have to fucking do anything more until it all needs to be packed up again on Sunday fucking yay.
Also I swear I have never been more aware of how skewed I am in terms of pure writing coherent fiction sentences speed as when the "boss battle" on 4 The Words is 2100 words to write in 9ish hours and I burst out laughing. At least I won't get bored or frustrated by an inability to do things but oh man. So far my biggest problem isn't with the site but is with figuring out what I'm going to write and trying not to have umpteen random projects going at once. Although once I've done background I might use it to finish some of the random WIPS I have floating around in my folders.
First, though, getting the background written. Getting some edits done now that things are on pause for a bit and I might have fucking energy ever. If I skip capoeira, getting some shit trimmed around the house so kids can come up for Halloween. (And getting some Halloween decorations out.) And just generally relax, collapse, craft, read. Something. Rest. Maybe I should take off capoeira on that basis alone. Argh.