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Dec. 16th, 2016 12:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeWell. I don't know if it's the melatonin or the exhaustion of yesterday but at least I fell asleep quickly when I went to bed, and when I woke up at 4 it was long enough to catch the hour and roll over and go back to sleep. I hope it's the melatonin because at least I can count on that continuing on, and I don't really want to be so exhausted that when I get home from work I can barely function. That wasn't fun.
I don't... I have ideas and theories and wild guesses and hopes about the press conference today, and the clusterfuck the US is about to go through. But I've already talked them out to the braintwin and posted some about them on Twitter and I don't think I want to talk about them any more for fear that I'm (and I most likely am) wrong. And this whole 'insufficient data' thing has never been more frustrating.
I am having a lot more fun drawing the past couple weeks. Which I think is partly a result of stress but also a result of finding a focus, scaling things down to what I can conceivably do with a few pushes here and there. Being encouraged. A confluence of things. Getting more comfortable with my tools. I need to make it work better with my scheduling, but so far so good. So far so keeping going, which is the main thing with me and drawing. I get so frustrated so easily because what I want to draw and what I end up drawing doesn't mesh well. (And I think, looking at what goes on in my head and the process of other people translating things to paper, I need to work on using reference images)
Writing yesterday just plain didn't happen. I got home and I was decompensating from all the stress of the day and I spent most of the evening watching Hemlock Grove, playing stupid phone games, burning my mouth on pasta and waiting for my milkshake so I could go to bed. So basically nothing happened at all. Hoping that today given that there was less really weird fucked-upness there will also be less decomp and more productivity in the evening. Languages, writing at least. And somewhere in there more knitting or drawing practice, one or the other. If I have time. If not, well, I bring my knitting to work tomorrow (because yes, recent bad luck shenanigans mean I get a six day work week yay me) and knitting then. Or sketching. Either. Both. Whichever.
I don't... I have ideas and theories and wild guesses and hopes about the press conference today, and the clusterfuck the US is about to go through. But I've already talked them out to the braintwin and posted some about them on Twitter and I don't think I want to talk about them any more for fear that I'm (and I most likely am) wrong. And this whole 'insufficient data' thing has never been more frustrating.
I am having a lot more fun drawing the past couple weeks. Which I think is partly a result of stress but also a result of finding a focus, scaling things down to what I can conceivably do with a few pushes here and there. Being encouraged. A confluence of things. Getting more comfortable with my tools. I need to make it work better with my scheduling, but so far so good. So far so keeping going, which is the main thing with me and drawing. I get so frustrated so easily because what I want to draw and what I end up drawing doesn't mesh well. (And I think, looking at what goes on in my head and the process of other people translating things to paper, I need to work on using reference images)
Writing yesterday just plain didn't happen. I got home and I was decompensating from all the stress of the day and I spent most of the evening watching Hemlock Grove, playing stupid phone games, burning my mouth on pasta and waiting for my milkshake so I could go to bed. So basically nothing happened at all. Hoping that today given that there was less really weird fucked-upness there will also be less decomp and more productivity in the evening. Languages, writing at least. And somewhere in there more knitting or drawing practice, one or the other. If I have time. If not, well, I bring my knitting to work tomorrow (because yes, recent bad luck shenanigans mean I get a six day work week yay me) and knitting then. Or sketching. Either. Both. Whichever.
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