(no subject)
Dec. 14th, 2016 10:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeUS politics continues to make me argh. I just. Argh. That's all there is to say that doesn't go into the extremely depressing details.
I slept way the hell in today, which I could actually do because my morning exercise is my evening exercise today because capoeira. But I also slept in because I woke up at about 4.30 and was up till 5, 5.15, stressing about how I hadn't done any of my capoeira homework and my teachers would be disappointed and it was the END OF THE WORLD. Flabby useless lump I am the least in shape and WOE. WOE IS ME.
This is not actually true. I've failed at doing structured exercise hour the past week mainly due to sleeping problems making it difficult to do it at the optimal time. One day I reallocated it and did it, one day I left it off because it was Thursday and fucking ow. One day I left it off because concert. And most of the last couple of days were sort of catch as catch can take five minutes and do exercises in between things, plus an energetic couple of days at work. So while no, I have not done structured exercise half hour to hour as I'd like to do? I am far from out of shape and the four am brainweasels can eat my entire ass.
I will say though, this doesn't disprove the melatonin theory though. Because I was so exhausted last night I didn't actually take it, which I should have done anyway to keep me asleep. So I'm going to try it again tonight even though I know I'm going to be pretty damn exhausted after capoeira class. Just so I don't fucking wake up. And then tomorrow morning's exercises should be stretches and pose holds because oh jesus with the sore. Ow. I have managed to get back with most of my other routines, there's always one or two that lag behind. This one happens to be exercise, last time I think it was Arabic and Hindi, endlessly. So. Bit by bit
I am also managing to get more drawing practice in than I expected, which pleases me. For at least the next few drawing practices, since I needed to get some perspective practice anyway, at least half of the drawings will be Aleppo as it was. Because of reasons and also goddammit I can ... do something. Besides fling whatever pittance I can spare (self, it's more than a lot of people, calm down.) But drawing Aleppo (the people of Aleppo. Whatever I can find) will at least give me a sense of preserving something. Bearing witness. Something. I'm making myself maudlin again. Time to earn my keep and label endless yarns.
I slept way the hell in today, which I could actually do because my morning exercise is my evening exercise today because capoeira. But I also slept in because I woke up at about 4.30 and was up till 5, 5.15, stressing about how I hadn't done any of my capoeira homework and my teachers would be disappointed and it was the END OF THE WORLD. Flabby useless lump I am the least in shape and WOE. WOE IS ME.
This is not actually true. I've failed at doing structured exercise hour the past week mainly due to sleeping problems making it difficult to do it at the optimal time. One day I reallocated it and did it, one day I left it off because it was Thursday and fucking ow. One day I left it off because concert. And most of the last couple of days were sort of catch as catch can take five minutes and do exercises in between things, plus an energetic couple of days at work. So while no, I have not done structured exercise half hour to hour as I'd like to do? I am far from out of shape and the four am brainweasels can eat my entire ass.
I will say though, this doesn't disprove the melatonin theory though. Because I was so exhausted last night I didn't actually take it, which I should have done anyway to keep me asleep. So I'm going to try it again tonight even though I know I'm going to be pretty damn exhausted after capoeira class. Just so I don't fucking wake up. And then tomorrow morning's exercises should be stretches and pose holds because oh jesus with the sore. Ow. I have managed to get back with most of my other routines, there's always one or two that lag behind. This one happens to be exercise, last time I think it was Arabic and Hindi, endlessly. So. Bit by bit
I am also managing to get more drawing practice in than I expected, which pleases me. For at least the next few drawing practices, since I needed to get some perspective practice anyway, at least half of the drawings will be Aleppo as it was. Because of reasons and also goddammit I can ... do something. Besides fling whatever pittance I can spare (self, it's more than a lot of people, calm down.) But drawing Aleppo (the people of Aleppo. Whatever I can find) will at least give me a sense of preserving something. Bearing witness. Something. I'm making myself maudlin again. Time to earn my keep and label endless yarns.