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Oct. 26th, 2016 03:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeWell, the craft fair is packed up and headed off to but I am physically and emotionally exhausted. My executive function meter is down in the yellow if not the orange/red and I seriously doubt if I'm going to make it to capoeira tonight. Or even if I do, if I'm going to be able to do anything there. I went to bed on time! I did! And I woke up on time and my body went nope you're going to sleep for another hour and a half.
I don't like this. I'm really, really tired of this, but I don't see an alternative. And I'm really, really annoyed at whatever corner of my brain is saying "you're just lazy you can totally do this and everything else in your life" NO shut up you stupid voice what the hell. I was moving, literally, several hundred pounds of merchandise yesterday, pretty much by myself, in addition to handling the logistics of packing and moving several thousand dollars worth of merch and I am fucking tired. Argh. Voices can go away. Obligations can go away. I do wish I was capable of doing things like capoeira anymore, but god I'm tired.
I might go anyway to watch and maybe sketch the outline of the movements and do some things very, very slowly. That I can do, I'm less physically exhausted than I was yesterday. Just ... burned out.
Maybe the better part of valor is to rest and try not to overwhelm my mind, either. I don't know.
I usually sleep 7 hours in a winter night (winter here defined as anywhere from after DragonCon to around April?) and last night I crashed around 11.30 and I got out of bed today at 8. So, yeah.
I did manage, somehow, yesterday, in all the ridiculousness, to get up a Halloween short story for Nerd Girls and my website, so if you enjoy teen girl centered fic, check it out! Quiet in the Library, based on this tumblr post because my brain goes a mile a minute sometimes and yes, there will be a sequel. Because tumblr. Actually I kind of want to go through my plotbunnies tag on tumblr and just start a story for all of them. I might do that. Someday. Ever. If I ever have energy.
I don't like this. I'm really, really tired of this, but I don't see an alternative. And I'm really, really annoyed at whatever corner of my brain is saying "you're just lazy you can totally do this and everything else in your life" NO shut up you stupid voice what the hell. I was moving, literally, several hundred pounds of merchandise yesterday, pretty much by myself, in addition to handling the logistics of packing and moving several thousand dollars worth of merch and I am fucking tired. Argh. Voices can go away. Obligations can go away. I do wish I was capable of doing things like capoeira anymore, but god I'm tired.
I might go anyway to watch and maybe sketch the outline of the movements and do some things very, very slowly. That I can do, I'm less physically exhausted than I was yesterday. Just ... burned out.
Maybe the better part of valor is to rest and try not to overwhelm my mind, either. I don't know.
I usually sleep 7 hours in a winter night (winter here defined as anywhere from after DragonCon to around April?) and last night I crashed around 11.30 and I got out of bed today at 8. So, yeah.
I did manage, somehow, yesterday, in all the ridiculousness, to get up a Halloween short story for Nerd Girls and my website, so if you enjoy teen girl centered fic, check it out! Quiet in the Library, based on this tumblr post because my brain goes a mile a minute sometimes and yes, there will be a sequel. Because tumblr. Actually I kind of want to go through my plotbunnies tag on tumblr and just start a story for all of them. I might do that. Someday. Ever. If I ever have energy.