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Dec. 7th, 2015 11:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeSo. I seem to be doing better the last couple of days or so, or at the very least what twitches and tics I'm having seem to be down to mice chewing on the brainwires again. Still very, very wary of coming out onto the internet and social media oh, ever again, but I'm hoping this is going better.
I still haven't even touched my terrorism course oops. I think what I'm going to aim for is three lectures in the US Government course per day, they're about 25 minutes and maybe add 5 onto that for pausing to catch up with notes, and then two lectures in Justice and then I have no idea what to do with the Terrorism/Counter Terrorism, because I have no idea what that's like because I haven't touched it. God, what else have I not touched. Probably far too many of my online courses because I've been catching up on them. Mandarin is an all year course I can do in a month or so when I stop catching up. Philosophy? Do I care about Philosophy? The first quizzes are due on the 22nd, so I guess I care about Philosophy until the 20th. And then I see how far behind I am.
Mostly I just want someone to pay me for hanging out and studying cool shit, but I think that's me and almost every other grad student, undergrad student, Ravenclaw, intellectually curious, etc type of anyone in the world, so.
There are also endless writing things to catch up on, but those might actually go faster now that I've (mostly) conquered the dreaded Publish A Thing To Print as well as the slightly less dreaded Publish A Thing To Digital. I just need to make the time to sit my dumb ass down and do it, which will probably happen more consistently after I make the time to sit down and do my last Haven episode. So many things I'm juggling. I don't feel overwhelmed yet. I should probably shut up about that before I do feel overwhelmed. Stupid caterpillar brain not able to both move feet and think about the process of moving feet at once.
Still having anxieties about finances, but at least this time it's more oh god how are we going to pay for the ongoing house fixes we need anxieties rather than immediate dire the electric is going to kill us with fire in our sleep anxieties. I mean okay, the flashing IS probably pretty urgent, but after that it's getting a couple of outlets fixed/replaced so that we can plug the fridge where it's meant to be plugged in rather than running an extension cord up over the higher cabinets all the way over to another of the MANY outlets in the kitchen. Seriously, we have... at least nine. Outlets. Just in the kitchen. Which is sort of useful and also just plain weird. And then we're doing the same in the living room, but I'm reasonably certain that's just bad outlets given that the rest of the house is stable and we did just a year ago have an electrician in to fix the bathroom outlet who proclaimed us Not In Need Of Rewiring. Just old and weird.
Which is pretty much standard for the house, it was built before electricity and indoor plumbing, when heating was your wood stove you cooked on. It is both very very old and very very weird.
So there's not much to be done about anything there. My credit card should be paid off next year, early next year? Late next year? Depends on how much my need for immediate shinies to comfort myself outweighs my need to eliminate my credit card debt. Hopefully it balances out. Social anxieties seem to be dying back down, although having spikes in financial anxieties sapping my energy is not fucking helping, thanks brain. Someone get the damn mice off the wires already.
... Mostly I just want an extra couple thousand dollars so I can deal with the roof and my credit card debt and not flail all over the place. Hmm. *eyes mutual funds* *sighs longingly*
The store is doing all right, the boy is doing all right at his new job, seeming to settle in with a schedule of three 12s and a bit and then a block of days off. I completely inadvertently had confirmed that yes, my progress in capoeira is good to the point where now they're just nitpicking at me to improve. My hand is recovered to the point where I can knit with it, YAY. But was having weird muscle spasms as recently as Saturday afternoon when there was an embarrassing moment in a restaurant. Goddammit.
I haven't made anything with the stand mixer yet because I am more justifiably anxious about setting it up on the counter by the door where the new feral sprays, and then my cats decide they need to spray occasionally, and then there is yelling and flinging of dishrags. And yet more scrubbing, and boiling of orange peels or something. BUT the cover for that should be here soon, so that will assuage that fear and I will set it up and then have all the delicious baked goods.
I still haven't even touched my terrorism course oops. I think what I'm going to aim for is three lectures in the US Government course per day, they're about 25 minutes and maybe add 5 onto that for pausing to catch up with notes, and then two lectures in Justice and then I have no idea what to do with the Terrorism/Counter Terrorism, because I have no idea what that's like because I haven't touched it. God, what else have I not touched. Probably far too many of my online courses because I've been catching up on them. Mandarin is an all year course I can do in a month or so when I stop catching up. Philosophy? Do I care about Philosophy? The first quizzes are due on the 22nd, so I guess I care about Philosophy until the 20th. And then I see how far behind I am.
Mostly I just want someone to pay me for hanging out and studying cool shit, but I think that's me and almost every other grad student, undergrad student, Ravenclaw, intellectually curious, etc type of anyone in the world, so.
There are also endless writing things to catch up on, but those might actually go faster now that I've (mostly) conquered the dreaded Publish A Thing To Print as well as the slightly less dreaded Publish A Thing To Digital. I just need to make the time to sit my dumb ass down and do it, which will probably happen more consistently after I make the time to sit down and do my last Haven episode. So many things I'm juggling. I don't feel overwhelmed yet. I should probably shut up about that before I do feel overwhelmed. Stupid caterpillar brain not able to both move feet and think about the process of moving feet at once.
Still having anxieties about finances, but at least this time it's more oh god how are we going to pay for the ongoing house fixes we need anxieties rather than immediate dire the electric is going to kill us with fire in our sleep anxieties. I mean okay, the flashing IS probably pretty urgent, but after that it's getting a couple of outlets fixed/replaced so that we can plug the fridge where it's meant to be plugged in rather than running an extension cord up over the higher cabinets all the way over to another of the MANY outlets in the kitchen. Seriously, we have... at least nine. Outlets. Just in the kitchen. Which is sort of useful and also just plain weird. And then we're doing the same in the living room, but I'm reasonably certain that's just bad outlets given that the rest of the house is stable and we did just a year ago have an electrician in to fix the bathroom outlet who proclaimed us Not In Need Of Rewiring. Just old and weird.
Which is pretty much standard for the house, it was built before electricity and indoor plumbing, when heating was your wood stove you cooked on. It is both very very old and very very weird.
So there's not much to be done about anything there. My credit card should be paid off next year, early next year? Late next year? Depends on how much my need for immediate shinies to comfort myself outweighs my need to eliminate my credit card debt. Hopefully it balances out. Social anxieties seem to be dying back down, although having spikes in financial anxieties sapping my energy is not fucking helping, thanks brain. Someone get the damn mice off the wires already.
... Mostly I just want an extra couple thousand dollars so I can deal with the roof and my credit card debt and not flail all over the place. Hmm. *eyes mutual funds* *sighs longingly*
The store is doing all right, the boy is doing all right at his new job, seeming to settle in with a schedule of three 12s and a bit and then a block of days off. I completely inadvertently had confirmed that yes, my progress in capoeira is good to the point where now they're just nitpicking at me to improve. My hand is recovered to the point where I can knit with it, YAY. But was having weird muscle spasms as recently as Saturday afternoon when there was an embarrassing moment in a restaurant. Goddammit.
I haven't made anything with the stand mixer yet because I am more justifiably anxious about setting it up on the counter by the door where the new feral sprays, and then my cats decide they need to spray occasionally, and then there is yelling and flinging of dishrags. And yet more scrubbing, and boiling of orange peels or something. BUT the cover for that should be here soon, so that will assuage that fear and I will set it up and then have all the delicious baked goods.