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Nov. 11th, 2015 11:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeAnother thing I realized; I'm getting kind of exhausted just thinking about all the crap I've done and mean to do. I mean, a lot of it is budgeted and there's times when I do get to just sit back and knit or probably curl up and read, but oh dear god. I think part of it is the fact that I'm editing all these anthologies (well, two, one now and one in the future) and I'm discovering, since I'm also editing a straight up novel at the same time, that the straight up novel is so much easier. It doesn't help that the main story in the one anthology is kind of a hot mess, thankfully slowly being straightened out, but. I will be so glad when that's done and I can just go back to writing and editing my straight up novels.
But I was good! I did my Japanese and did some edits on White Lightning, the anthology, usually the hardest part of my daily writing chores, before I even got to work in the hour I usually exercise in but since I'm going to wear myself out at capoeira tonight, not so much. Now all I have to do is clear a couple scenes in Sandborn and probably write more and more in Long Road, aiming for I guess 2500 words today off and on during the day, and both of those are going pretty quick. See, self? Not so much work as you thought.
(Maybe at this point it really is work done rather than work to do and I'm caterpillaring myself.)
I also did something stupid because I am incapable of turning down learn the shiny new thing and agreed to test a sweater pattern, despite not having ever made a sweater in my life. I also did this, admittedly, because I have at least one aunt who is expert at knitting sweaters, a friend of an aunt who is also experienced at knitting sweaters, and another aunt who probably wouldn't call herself that but has definitely done them more than I have all of whom I can go HELP IS THIS REALLY WHAT'S GOING ON PLS SHOW ME. And we don't have any shows to do, and I've been meaning to learn sweaters anyway, so. Now I'm kind of forced to! Picking up yarn for it today, or at least picking up starting yarn for it today and casting on the first few rows. No, I don't do things by half measures, I just sort of fling myself in the direction of learnings and try not to fall on my face. It's worked so far, partly because I pick things up quickly and have a quick mind and partly because through doing this and falling on my face a lot, I've gotten at least better at not beating myself up for failures. See also: Try again, fail again, fail better being an accepted part of my various mantras.
Right. Oogh. We got a new credit card machine at work which has now thoroughly derailed my brain to the point where I've spent the last thirty minutes or so unsnarling this labyrinth of yarn rather than work on writing. Argh. And the day started out so productively and so well. Which I guess means I'd just better get started on something else so I can collapse when I finally get home after capoeira. And maybe fool myself into being further productive so I don't castigate myself for resting later. Yes, this is just a bit screwed up. On the other hand, being productive on writing stuff at the moment is not actually neglecting my day jobligations so... well, at this point I'm talking myself in circles. Allons-y. Probably what I really need to do is reinstitute my policy of no srs business work after Xpm.
Argh.
But I was good! I did my Japanese and did some edits on White Lightning, the anthology, usually the hardest part of my daily writing chores, before I even got to work in the hour I usually exercise in but since I'm going to wear myself out at capoeira tonight, not so much. Now all I have to do is clear a couple scenes in Sandborn and probably write more and more in Long Road, aiming for I guess 2500 words today off and on during the day, and both of those are going pretty quick. See, self? Not so much work as you thought.
(Maybe at this point it really is work done rather than work to do and I'm caterpillaring myself.)
I also did something stupid because I am incapable of turning down learn the shiny new thing and agreed to test a sweater pattern, despite not having ever made a sweater in my life. I also did this, admittedly, because I have at least one aunt who is expert at knitting sweaters, a friend of an aunt who is also experienced at knitting sweaters, and another aunt who probably wouldn't call herself that but has definitely done them more than I have all of whom I can go HELP IS THIS REALLY WHAT'S GOING ON PLS SHOW ME. And we don't have any shows to do, and I've been meaning to learn sweaters anyway, so. Now I'm kind of forced to! Picking up yarn for it today, or at least picking up starting yarn for it today and casting on the first few rows. No, I don't do things by half measures, I just sort of fling myself in the direction of learnings and try not to fall on my face. It's worked so far, partly because I pick things up quickly and have a quick mind and partly because through doing this and falling on my face a lot, I've gotten at least better at not beating myself up for failures. See also: Try again, fail again, fail better being an accepted part of my various mantras.
Right. Oogh. We got a new credit card machine at work which has now thoroughly derailed my brain to the point where I've spent the last thirty minutes or so unsnarling this labyrinth of yarn rather than work on writing. Argh. And the day started out so productively and so well. Which I guess means I'd just better get started on something else so I can collapse when I finally get home after capoeira. And maybe fool myself into being further productive so I don't castigate myself for resting later. Yes, this is just a bit screwed up. On the other hand, being productive on writing stuff at the moment is not actually neglecting my day jobligations so... well, at this point I'm talking myself in circles. Allons-y. Probably what I really need to do is reinstitute my policy of no srs business work after Xpm.
Argh.
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Date: 2015-11-11 09:00 pm (UTC)