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Nov. 10th, 2015 10:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeI thought today was going to be flagging on account of being more tired when I woke up, and then I made myself exercise anyway even if all I wanted to do is sit and knit and I'm not sure I have the same amount of energy as I did yesterday, but something very close to it. Maybe 30 more minutes of sleep. But that was the cat's fault last night. Little Bit's, that is.
(Really, I should have known when I brought her into the computer room that we were never going to end up adopting her out if we didn't find five cats more burdensome than four, which so far not in the least bit. But. Really.)
Threw cards last night, which resulted in some bizarre things I couldn't quite interpret like: root and crown as King of Cups and The Chariot respectively. Hopes and Fears as King of Coins? The Fool as the final card (Celtic Cross spread) is entirely my deck trolling me, I'm reasonably sure. Plus it's the first reading after Samhain, plus it's Nanowrimo which explains that and all the wands everywhere else. Other than that, some good reminders and encouragement and nothing much new there.
Thanks to LB and the braintwin I am now signed up on FutureLearn and have promptly sent myself into a headspin of learn all the things look at all this shiny new shit augh. With the end result being that I managed to knock myself out of focus oh goodie. Fortunately a whole lot of day job shit got done in the morning because it's amazing what I can do when I get a full night's sleep and actually have energy the next day. Energy from sleep and energy to exercise and therefore be energized in the day. And I should eat better while I'm remembering what good habits do, except I totally don't regret the KitKat I had to get rid of the fucking taste of prednisone in my mouth. Tastes of chalk outlines on the dirtiest street in London. So glad today was the last pill.
I need to get back to knocking things down on my to-do list on Habitica, because some of those things are writing and/or household chores that have been lingering for a very long time (mending, etc, for the household) and then I get stuck in the tailspin of oh god so much to do what do I do first I'll do one from each list and never complete it. Brains, argh, how do they work. Trying a new plan of okay, what do I need to immediately do, and then, what do I have time to get done, and then, what have I done today is it time to take a five/put everything down for the rest of the day? Because oh god, the superwoman complex, let me show you it. I have so many problems with thinking it's not okay just to sit down and read a book or watch a TV show or something. I mean, getting restless without knitting in my hands is one thing when watching TV, but feeling guilty because I'm not being productive? Ugh. That way lies badness. But, yeah. The paralysis of all these to-do lists. One thing at a time, self. One thing at a time.
And breathing. Remember to breathe. Remember to eat healthy. Get sleep. The basic courtesan things. And the virtues, always the virtues. Beauty, Grace, Wit, Charm, Gaiety, Brilliance, and Timing. Breathe. Do the thing. Then the other thing. Don't get paralyzed by how many things they are. Keep moving and fail better. House mantra.
(Now if I can just manage to keep eating, sleeping, and avoiding all death plagues of winter I should be okay.)
(Really, I should have known when I brought her into the computer room that we were never going to end up adopting her out if we didn't find five cats more burdensome than four, which so far not in the least bit. But. Really.)
Threw cards last night, which resulted in some bizarre things I couldn't quite interpret like: root and crown as King of Cups and The Chariot respectively. Hopes and Fears as King of Coins? The Fool as the final card (Celtic Cross spread) is entirely my deck trolling me, I'm reasonably sure. Plus it's the first reading after Samhain, plus it's Nanowrimo which explains that and all the wands everywhere else. Other than that, some good reminders and encouragement and nothing much new there.
Thanks to LB and the braintwin I am now signed up on FutureLearn and have promptly sent myself into a headspin of learn all the things look at all this shiny new shit augh. With the end result being that I managed to knock myself out of focus oh goodie. Fortunately a whole lot of day job shit got done in the morning because it's amazing what I can do when I get a full night's sleep and actually have energy the next day. Energy from sleep and energy to exercise and therefore be energized in the day. And I should eat better while I'm remembering what good habits do, except I totally don't regret the KitKat I had to get rid of the fucking taste of prednisone in my mouth. Tastes of chalk outlines on the dirtiest street in London. So glad today was the last pill.
I need to get back to knocking things down on my to-do list on Habitica, because some of those things are writing and/or household chores that have been lingering for a very long time (mending, etc, for the household) and then I get stuck in the tailspin of oh god so much to do what do I do first I'll do one from each list and never complete it. Brains, argh, how do they work. Trying a new plan of okay, what do I need to immediately do, and then, what do I have time to get done, and then, what have I done today is it time to take a five/put everything down for the rest of the day? Because oh god, the superwoman complex, let me show you it. I have so many problems with thinking it's not okay just to sit down and read a book or watch a TV show or something. I mean, getting restless without knitting in my hands is one thing when watching TV, but feeling guilty because I'm not being productive? Ugh. That way lies badness. But, yeah. The paralysis of all these to-do lists. One thing at a time, self. One thing at a time.
And breathing. Remember to breathe. Remember to eat healthy. Get sleep. The basic courtesan things. And the virtues, always the virtues. Beauty, Grace, Wit, Charm, Gaiety, Brilliance, and Timing. Breathe. Do the thing. Then the other thing. Don't get paralyzed by how many things they are. Keep moving and fail better. House mantra.
(Now if I can just manage to keep eating, sleeping, and avoiding all death plagues of winter I should be okay.)