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Jan. 6th, 2015 08:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeThere's a really special kind of irony to the fact that a project a friend did, designed to reinforce and bolster and renew women's self esteem, smashed mine into the dirt. I still have no idea why or how given that it didn't really do anything to me, and I'm kind of inclined to blame chemicals as it's about that time, but damn. That was impressive. And special. And not happy.
And various other things, but yeah, I'm inclined to blame the hormones and chemicals and so on. On the plus side I might even get a decent night's sleep tonight if I'm even more careful than I have been, and if it's hormonal at least I can keep going on the way I have been, and it'll pass. I've built up quite a bit of experience keeping on going doing things the way I have been while the inside of my head shrieks at me about how no one cares, they'll just ignore you, they won't even see you, blah blah blah.
It is such a damn good thing I have a massage this Saturday, at this rate. I can't even tell you, such a damn good thing. And I still have to get on the phone tomorrow morning with my investment people and I don't wanna. I have so much don't wanna for everything this week. I just want to sit down and curl up with my online lessons and learn about physics and biology and languages and other things that it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.
At any rate. Writing has happened, Japanese has happened, Physics and Immunology have happened, Arabic is happening in between bites of cake. And then at some point reading Russian or Spanish and possibly doing some friendship bracelets. Still on a Ravenclaw kick so they're all going to be blue and silver and so on. Or something.
And various other things, but yeah, I'm inclined to blame the hormones and chemicals and so on. On the plus side I might even get a decent night's sleep tonight if I'm even more careful than I have been, and if it's hormonal at least I can keep going on the way I have been, and it'll pass. I've built up quite a bit of experience keeping on going doing things the way I have been while the inside of my head shrieks at me about how no one cares, they'll just ignore you, they won't even see you, blah blah blah.
It is such a damn good thing I have a massage this Saturday, at this rate. I can't even tell you, such a damn good thing. And I still have to get on the phone tomorrow morning with my investment people and I don't wanna. I have so much don't wanna for everything this week. I just want to sit down and curl up with my online lessons and learn about physics and biology and languages and other things that it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.
At any rate. Writing has happened, Japanese has happened, Physics and Immunology have happened, Arabic is happening in between bites of cake. And then at some point reading Russian or Spanish and possibly doing some friendship bracelets. Still on a Ravenclaw kick so they're all going to be blue and silver and so on. Or something.
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Date: 2015-01-07 04:48 am (UTC)*hugs you tight-tight*