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Jan. 2nd, 2015 03:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittydesadeDoing somewhat better today, if nothing else in that I am not looking at things I know will be bad for my mindset, what the hell, self, really? And I scheduled my massage because the gift certificate said "Don't make me glare over my glasses at you." Literally. I have the certificate, it says that.
Paid the mortgage. Next week I get to pay the rest of the bills and take my dentist's cut out of it, and I suppose I might as well get my pills and take that out, and then I get to see how much money I don't have left. Perfect storm of fucking bills and lack of paycheck, I fucking swear. On the plus side, after this month and maybe next month to recover from this month, it should be better? This isn't a long term thing, it isn't even a permanent thing, next year this time we won't have either car payments or the giant car maintenance thing of giantude. This year just fucking sucks. If it weren't for Christmas money to be able to buy myself and the boy shinies over Christmas, and then to pad us out over the financial storm I would be even more of a tense nervous wreck than I am.
(Hence the best braintwin getting me the massage certificate and glaring at me till I use it. Yes, dear.)
Anyway. So that's happened, and I've arranged some more goals for the month, did some reading, did my Japanese and my Russian. Did not manage to get writing done at work but them's the breaks. Did most to all of my languages, though. And tonight! tonight not only will I get around to starting and hemming the goddamn curtains, I will actually be able to (I hope) do some calligraphy in Latin! Yay Latin! Because I should have my fountain pen set with the variable nibs and therefore something narrow enough to write with, instead of practicing big fat wide Arabic (and soon Hindi!) letters like a schoolchild. WHich is fine for Arabic and Hindi because I basically am a six year old as far as that goes, but Latin I can actually use the romance alphabet thank you very much.
Ahem. Look, languages excite me, okay? Languages plus pretty writing and I bounce around in a circle. Plus I don't have to deal with dinner for both of us so I can make whatever the hell I want. Which is probably going to be sweet and sour chicken. I have a craving. And chili-honey that I might put in there.
Definitely feeling better today, even with the pile of writing work I have to do when I get home. Well, work in general, writing, hemming, etc. But still. Keeping on keeping on, I can work with this to-do list.
Paid the mortgage. Next week I get to pay the rest of the bills and take my dentist's cut out of it, and I suppose I might as well get my pills and take that out, and then I get to see how much money I don't have left. Perfect storm of fucking bills and lack of paycheck, I fucking swear. On the plus side, after this month and maybe next month to recover from this month, it should be better? This isn't a long term thing, it isn't even a permanent thing, next year this time we won't have either car payments or the giant car maintenance thing of giantude. This year just fucking sucks. If it weren't for Christmas money to be able to buy myself and the boy shinies over Christmas, and then to pad us out over the financial storm I would be even more of a tense nervous wreck than I am.
(Hence the best braintwin getting me the massage certificate and glaring at me till I use it. Yes, dear.)
Anyway. So that's happened, and I've arranged some more goals for the month, did some reading, did my Japanese and my Russian. Did not manage to get writing done at work but them's the breaks. Did most to all of my languages, though. And tonight! tonight not only will I get around to starting and hemming the goddamn curtains, I will actually be able to (I hope) do some calligraphy in Latin! Yay Latin! Because I should have my fountain pen set with the variable nibs and therefore something narrow enough to write with, instead of practicing big fat wide Arabic (and soon Hindi!) letters like a schoolchild. WHich is fine for Arabic and Hindi because I basically am a six year old as far as that goes, but Latin I can actually use the romance alphabet thank you very much.
Ahem. Look, languages excite me, okay? Languages plus pretty writing and I bounce around in a circle. Plus I don't have to deal with dinner for both of us so I can make whatever the hell I want. Which is probably going to be sweet and sour chicken. I have a craving. And chili-honey that I might put in there.
Definitely feeling better today, even with the pile of writing work I have to do when I get home. Well, work in general, writing, hemming, etc. But still. Keeping on keeping on, I can work with this to-do list.