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Oct. 7th, 2023 10:29 pmI suppose as weeks go I've had worse, but I could really have used some room to breathe there. Thank you all for your kind comments. I am hugging you all in my mind.
So, last Sunday I had a seemingly random bout with insomnia, which I sort of put down to it had been a week since Maggie-cat had suddenly died and grief will hit you out of nowhere. But then on Monday I started overheating badly in bed, everywhere my body touched the bed felt burning hot. And I itched. A lot. And I couldn't sleep partly because of this and also partly just... I couldn't sleep? It got worse and worse until I finally messaged my doctor and asked about hot flashes and menopause. I figured that was what it was, all things considered and my age and all. It was also only a couple weeks shy of time for my six month bloodwork, so I would go in for that and they'd do a few additional tests and see what was what.
Come to find out it wasn't menopause at all. A normal level of TSH for your average human is between .4 and 4 units. Mine was at .15. Which is unusual because for the last six, seven, something like that years my thyroid has been slowly getting more and more useless, and my synthetic thyroid hormone dosage has been going up and up. And suddenly I was taking too much! Which can cause, wait for it... overheating, itchy skin, and insomnia.
So I took my first of the new dosage today and I do feel rather better, and we'll see how this goes. I go in for a follow up blood check in six weeks. I do kind of feel better, I hope I'm sleeping better tonight too, I've been largely useless for the entire week and I am super behind on Inktober, for which I had grand plans this year. As always? I can still catch up but I really need to get my ass in gear over it. The idea is animal mashups, the first one I'm doing is a bat/gerbil/horse type mashup, and I can even picture it, but I need to sit down and draw it and today's the first day I've felt like I've had any focus. I've spent most of it on doing ink swatches, getting back to practicing my Cherokee, and trying to catch the maybe-feral maybe-stray cat living in and around our house.
But, with any luck, this will be the first in a long string of relax, ordinary, feeling-good days to come and I can get back to working on all the things I want to be working on. Like writing. And drawing. And getting actual day job work done, let us not talk about how many sites I have on my slate right now. Fortunately my boss seems to think I'm handling myself okay. Or rather she hasn't asked if I need any help or what's going on. I don't know if it's TMI to go "um, I need my meds adjusted, but it's fine, everything's fine, we're all fine here." It's been a very long time since I've worked with Not Family.
Oh, and I got the covid vaccine while I was getting my blood checked for hormones. I opted to get just covid rather than covid and flu given how shitty I was already feeling, which, given that the covid vaccine has extremely angered my left lymph node plus a low grade fever, definitely feels like the right answer. Next vaccine can go with the next blood work.
So, last Sunday I had a seemingly random bout with insomnia, which I sort of put down to it had been a week since Maggie-cat had suddenly died and grief will hit you out of nowhere. But then on Monday I started overheating badly in bed, everywhere my body touched the bed felt burning hot. And I itched. A lot. And I couldn't sleep partly because of this and also partly just... I couldn't sleep? It got worse and worse until I finally messaged my doctor and asked about hot flashes and menopause. I figured that was what it was, all things considered and my age and all. It was also only a couple weeks shy of time for my six month bloodwork, so I would go in for that and they'd do a few additional tests and see what was what.
Come to find out it wasn't menopause at all. A normal level of TSH for your average human is between .4 and 4 units. Mine was at .15. Which is unusual because for the last six, seven, something like that years my thyroid has been slowly getting more and more useless, and my synthetic thyroid hormone dosage has been going up and up. And suddenly I was taking too much! Which can cause, wait for it... overheating, itchy skin, and insomnia.
So I took my first of the new dosage today and I do feel rather better, and we'll see how this goes. I go in for a follow up blood check in six weeks. I do kind of feel better, I hope I'm sleeping better tonight too, I've been largely useless for the entire week and I am super behind on Inktober, for which I had grand plans this year. As always? I can still catch up but I really need to get my ass in gear over it. The idea is animal mashups, the first one I'm doing is a bat/gerbil/horse type mashup, and I can even picture it, but I need to sit down and draw it and today's the first day I've felt like I've had any focus. I've spent most of it on doing ink swatches, getting back to practicing my Cherokee, and trying to catch the maybe-feral maybe-stray cat living in and around our house.
But, with any luck, this will be the first in a long string of relax, ordinary, feeling-good days to come and I can get back to working on all the things I want to be working on. Like writing. And drawing. And getting actual day job work done, let us not talk about how many sites I have on my slate right now. Fortunately my boss seems to think I'm handling myself okay. Or rather she hasn't asked if I need any help or what's going on. I don't know if it's TMI to go "um, I need my meds adjusted, but it's fine, everything's fine, we're all fine here." It's been a very long time since I've worked with Not Family.
Oh, and I got the covid vaccine while I was getting my blood checked for hormones. I opted to get just covid rather than covid and flu given how shitty I was already feeling, which, given that the covid vaccine has extremely angered my left lymph node plus a low grade fever, definitely feels like the right answer. Next vaccine can go with the next blood work.