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Nov. 23rd, 2020 11:04 am*incoherent screeching* Great, now I have to use Sinatra and Ruby and Active Record and SQL all at once and I've forgotten how half of them work. And yes I realize some of these are built on others of these but I have to juggle four things at once and I've forgotten how half of them work argh.
I have notes. It'll be fine. I have notes. And intellectually, I know that it'll come back to me as I re-read my notes and the relevant sections and there are people there to help me if I need it, but aaaargh.
It's fine. I have a full face of makeup on with plenty of glitter, I've discovered some new products that work better and decided maybe I don't necessarily need the bougie primer every day after all. It's fine. Speaking of which, makeup notes: the Tatcha liquid silk primer may or may not play well with the Maybelline Glass Skin finishing spray, or maybe I'm just still using too much IDEK. Maybe time to make a graph. The Maybelline Glass Skin finishing spray is fucking awesome and also fucking stinky. The Nars Radiant Creamy Concealer is so much better than the Elf Hydrating one as far as directly under eyes go, but about the same as far as contouring the face go. Next up, trying it against the Elf Regular one. I've gone from "well I have extremely dry skin" to briefly trying some oily skin tricks back to dry skin to thinking okay, maybe baking a little is okay so I'm back to trying the elf HD powder, which is still good. The YSL The Curler mascara is.... like, the wand is fine, it curls, ish? But the mascara formula is thick and goop. I don't think I'll be buying that again. The Shock continues to be excellent. Also I forgot to put on lashes today, which makes me sad. BUT the Velour Lash & Go works very well as both liner and adhesive under normal working conditions. I haven't tried strenuous exercise with it on but on the other hand I don't think I want to DO strenuous exercise with lashes on at all. Hell with that.
We made a vet appointment for Mikey because he's losing weight and the boy is worried. I'm worried too, but I'm trying to stay hopeful and think that it's just Old Cat Syndrome, maybe his thyroid is going wonky, something treatable and not a resurgence of his cancer. It is more likely that it's a resurgence of his cancer, worryingly. He is, as the boy said, past his expiration date by a number of months. (i.e. past the point at which he was supposed to have good quality of life after removing the tumor-filled spleen) but other than losing weight and occasionally throwing up things that aren't food bolted too fast, he seems relatively healthy? But then again he did back then, too. I don't know.
Basically I'm worried and stressed and trying not to freak out all over the place even though I'm definitely freaking out all over the place and I can't wait until this lab is done so I can at least have something different to stress out about. And so I can have an example to go back to and go "okay, that's right, we did this like this."
I have notes. It'll be fine. I have notes. And intellectually, I know that it'll come back to me as I re-read my notes and the relevant sections and there are people there to help me if I need it, but aaaargh.
It's fine. I have a full face of makeup on with plenty of glitter, I've discovered some new products that work better and decided maybe I don't necessarily need the bougie primer every day after all. It's fine. Speaking of which, makeup notes: the Tatcha liquid silk primer may or may not play well with the Maybelline Glass Skin finishing spray, or maybe I'm just still using too much IDEK. Maybe time to make a graph. The Maybelline Glass Skin finishing spray is fucking awesome and also fucking stinky. The Nars Radiant Creamy Concealer is so much better than the Elf Hydrating one as far as directly under eyes go, but about the same as far as contouring the face go. Next up, trying it against the Elf Regular one. I've gone from "well I have extremely dry skin" to briefly trying some oily skin tricks back to dry skin to thinking okay, maybe baking a little is okay so I'm back to trying the elf HD powder, which is still good. The YSL The Curler mascara is.... like, the wand is fine, it curls, ish? But the mascara formula is thick and goop. I don't think I'll be buying that again. The Shock continues to be excellent. Also I forgot to put on lashes today, which makes me sad. BUT the Velour Lash & Go works very well as both liner and adhesive under normal working conditions. I haven't tried strenuous exercise with it on but on the other hand I don't think I want to DO strenuous exercise with lashes on at all. Hell with that.
We made a vet appointment for Mikey because he's losing weight and the boy is worried. I'm worried too, but I'm trying to stay hopeful and think that it's just Old Cat Syndrome, maybe his thyroid is going wonky, something treatable and not a resurgence of his cancer. It is more likely that it's a resurgence of his cancer, worryingly. He is, as the boy said, past his expiration date by a number of months. (i.e. past the point at which he was supposed to have good quality of life after removing the tumor-filled spleen) but other than losing weight and occasionally throwing up things that aren't food bolted too fast, he seems relatively healthy? But then again he did back then, too. I don't know.
Basically I'm worried and stressed and trying not to freak out all over the place even though I'm definitely freaking out all over the place and I can't wait until this lab is done so I can at least have something different to stress out about. And so I can have an example to go back to and go "okay, that's right, we did this like this."