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Sep. 8th, 2020 01:13 pmI'm going to put this here now before I run into another lab that makes me cry: yes, I asked for help and you know what? It was not in fact the end of the world. It wasn't even the negging "socratic method" I half expected, it was about forty five minutes of taking each test going "Okay, what do you think goes here?" and giving one answer (me and the other person who was stuck on the same lab, heh) and the study leader going "Well, that'll do this" and either it was one way to do it or he told us what it would give instead and then gave the correct answer, and asked us to make sure we knew why it was correct. So I don't know how Socrates comes into it but see, self? It's a walkthrough. They'll take your hand and walk you through it. It's fine.
I'm putting this here because I'm about to tackle the Object Oriented version of a lab that kicked my ass before, and even though I know WHY that happened and I know what to do now, I still have this knee-jerk ugh response to it and I'm really hoping that's not going to make it difficult to work it.
Later...
Okay! So I started the lab, I did not finish it because it's a huge lab and I'm already frayed at the edges, but I got 19 tests out of ??? (I don't know how many test are in the full thing, there's three parts) passing, and I stopped to make dinner and take a breath. I may keep poking at it tonight during what would normally be class block hours, I may not, the last five? ish days of class have been pretty fraught. And I am taking tomorrow off, but today's been a much more positive experience and a much better experience? practice? of managing frustrating tests. I got through about 14 tests and ran into a problem where I had to think about what the code I'd put in was doing, change it so that it did what I needed it to do. There was some trying a thing, not having it work, taking a breath and walking a circle around the office and coming back to it ten, fifteen minutes later. But overall, I think today was a better, hopefully more normative coding/learning to code experience. Less with the panic attacks and more with the weary but casual "oh for fucksake" and going and taking out a box of recycling or something.
My monitor stands came, they put the monitor slightly taller than I expected and perhaps taller than is ideal? I should have expected that though. And it's fine, I can put a booster cushion in my chair, me being a short person. It'd be fine for the boy! Whose torso, I think, is about the same height as my torso and head. I am a short and small person. The point being, they're gorgeous and I can shove my keyboards under them and do art on my desk now. ... I'm also going to have to recalibrate my webcam. Interesting. But a later problem.
I did some art the other day and I'm going to do some more tonight. I got some words done, I'm going to do some more words tonight, and have a cider with my dinner dammit. I feel better, I think not just about coding and tech school and new careers and changing careers and learning things, but in general. Healthier. Definitely calmer. And hopefully more willing to take time and learn the things and not castigate myself if I don't get them right the first time.
(I may update this later with a tally of art and words I've done, or I may just tell y'all about it tomorrow. We'll see. I still need to eat dinner because lunch was a bit late.)
I'm putting this here because I'm about to tackle the Object Oriented version of a lab that kicked my ass before, and even though I know WHY that happened and I know what to do now, I still have this knee-jerk ugh response to it and I'm really hoping that's not going to make it difficult to work it.
Later...
Okay! So I started the lab, I did not finish it because it's a huge lab and I'm already frayed at the edges, but I got 19 tests out of ??? (I don't know how many test are in the full thing, there's three parts) passing, and I stopped to make dinner and take a breath. I may keep poking at it tonight during what would normally be class block hours, I may not, the last five? ish days of class have been pretty fraught. And I am taking tomorrow off, but today's been a much more positive experience and a much better experience? practice? of managing frustrating tests. I got through about 14 tests and ran into a problem where I had to think about what the code I'd put in was doing, change it so that it did what I needed it to do. There was some trying a thing, not having it work, taking a breath and walking a circle around the office and coming back to it ten, fifteen minutes later. But overall, I think today was a better, hopefully more normative coding/learning to code experience. Less with the panic attacks and more with the weary but casual "oh for fucksake" and going and taking out a box of recycling or something.
My monitor stands came, they put the monitor slightly taller than I expected and perhaps taller than is ideal? I should have expected that though. And it's fine, I can put a booster cushion in my chair, me being a short person. It'd be fine for the boy! Whose torso, I think, is about the same height as my torso and head. I am a short and small person. The point being, they're gorgeous and I can shove my keyboards under them and do art on my desk now. ... I'm also going to have to recalibrate my webcam. Interesting. But a later problem.
I did some art the other day and I'm going to do some more tonight. I got some words done, I'm going to do some more words tonight, and have a cider with my dinner dammit. I feel better, I think not just about coding and tech school and new careers and changing careers and learning things, but in general. Healthier. Definitely calmer. And hopefully more willing to take time and learn the things and not castigate myself if I don't get them right the first time.
(I may update this later with a tally of art and words I've done, or I may just tell y'all about it tomorrow. We'll see. I still need to eat dinner because lunch was a bit late.)