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Aug. 24th, 2020 10:45 amNot entirely sure if this is affecting my slowly-easing still-sort-of-rapid-cycling emotions but I woke up in the middle of the night last night, again, coughing, with my chest laboring as though I was tachycardic (turned out I wasn't) and finally I took a trazodone to get to sleep. Woke up this morning with even more schmutz on my lungs and realized we haven't cleaned the AC in a few months. The boy checked before he went to bed this morning and yep, it's covered in more schmutz. Which explains the coughing fits the last two nights! We're going to clean it soon, not yet because I'm exhausted from irregular sleep and the boy's exhausted from night shift, but soon. If I have to I can sleep in the guest room, it's cool enough, and that might be a good idea anyway just to test the It's Not My Emotions It's The Crap In The Air theory.
And if I weren't so goddamn exhausted I'd feel emotionally better this morning, I'm pretty sure. I dyed my hair yesterday, I did all the moisturizing things, I curled my hair by way of braids and hair goop, not that that lasted but it looked pretty cool. (It's still damp, the curl might very well come back, no clue, don't care very much.) My hair now looks very dark not quite blue black but black enough to give a good contrast to the red. I'm still struggling to eat breakfast, but again I think that's more exhaustion and lungs and sleeping in bad air than anything. We can fix that.
I really, really need to clean the office. Too many recent projects with too little clean-up.
I do not need to learn how to start my own projects on GitHub oh my god, self, it has been three weeks. I am starting my fourth week, I don't need to start working on my writer tools page or any other projects of any kind, it's fine, calm down. Honestly, sometimes I don't know where my brain gets these ideas but yesterday and the day before it was launching headfirst into converting my wardrobe to Visual Kei (not that it needs much converting really, there was a boutique roundup on tumblr and I manically window-shopped for two days) and today I need to code all the things I guess. Only I'm too tired to be really manic about it.
Schedules are for other people today. As I'm getting towards an hour in on my first class block I need to remember this, but really. The only one determining my schedule right now is me. As long as I get my work done, it doesn't matter. Which means makeup to make me feel slightly awake and capable, exercise, bass practice, and then working on the next module in Ruby. I don't think it's very long even, I may make finishing that module today my goal. I'm still ahead as far as the projected wossis anyway, when (according to the tech school algorithm and my given hours working on classwork) I should be finished with Things. So I can take today and go a little slower. And hopefully sleep better tonight now that I've identified the problem.
And if I weren't so goddamn exhausted I'd feel emotionally better this morning, I'm pretty sure. I dyed my hair yesterday, I did all the moisturizing things, I curled my hair by way of braids and hair goop, not that that lasted but it looked pretty cool. (It's still damp, the curl might very well come back, no clue, don't care very much.) My hair now looks very dark not quite blue black but black enough to give a good contrast to the red. I'm still struggling to eat breakfast, but again I think that's more exhaustion and lungs and sleeping in bad air than anything. We can fix that.
I really, really need to clean the office. Too many recent projects with too little clean-up.
I do not need to learn how to start my own projects on GitHub oh my god, self, it has been three weeks. I am starting my fourth week, I don't need to start working on my writer tools page or any other projects of any kind, it's fine, calm down. Honestly, sometimes I don't know where my brain gets these ideas but yesterday and the day before it was launching headfirst into converting my wardrobe to Visual Kei (not that it needs much converting really, there was a boutique roundup on tumblr and I manically window-shopped for two days) and today I need to code all the things I guess. Only I'm too tired to be really manic about it.
Schedules are for other people today. As I'm getting towards an hour in on my first class block I need to remember this, but really. The only one determining my schedule right now is me. As long as I get my work done, it doesn't matter. Which means makeup to make me feel slightly awake and capable, exercise, bass practice, and then working on the next module in Ruby. I don't think it's very long even, I may make finishing that module today my goal. I'm still ahead as far as the projected wossis anyway, when (according to the tech school algorithm and my given hours working on classwork) I should be finished with Things. So I can take today and go a little slower. And hopefully sleep better tonight now that I've identified the problem.