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Jun. 29th, 2020 08:43 pmToday wasn't the worst day in the world, but it was by far not the best day I've had in a while either. First the credit card company said there weren't going to be any more forebearance/deferments coming which, um. Have you missed the fact that a lot of people are still out of work/about to be out of work again as things shut down again and people get sick? And then my aunt basically cleaned out my desk and dropped it off on my front stoop, leading to some questions from the boy that I didn't know how to answer and got more and more stressed about. I don't know why my aunt wanted to clean out my desk, and I don't have any different answers for why they're shutting down the store other than they're all old, this isn't going to go away anytime soon, and no it's not ideal or even fun but asking me for answers I don't have is only going to make me yell at you and then cry at you.
So I did. I yelled. And then I cried a lot. I am.. not that much better. But oddly, more confident in my ability to get through tech school, assuming there is a reasonable possibility of a job that doesn't involve me moving house. I'm assuming that is not an unreasonable demand from the admissions person. I hope.
I just don't know. And I'd feel a lot more comfortable about this if I did know. But I don't. So I'm going to try not to worry about that part of it for now, and worry about getting my skills back up to snuff.
I looked on their website. Their coding bootcamp prep talks about studying HTML, CSS, JavaScript, Ruby, and "technical interviews" which, huh? But HTML and CSS, yeah, those I'm definitely familiar with. JavaScript not so much, Ruby not at all. But I know where to go to practice it, and I have a notebook ready for notes and things, I have advice from people in tech. ACTUALLY. I should go ask a couple other people I know in tech. (Actually I should probably stop thinking about it.) (I'm going to do that second one because the thought of them giving a non-favorable answer is closing my throat right now.) Anyway. I know what I need to study over the next week. Now I just need to study it.
The rest of the day, not bad? Beads were put away, cross-stitch was gridded, garden was watered and is doing fine, the cherokee purple tomato plant looks very happy to be in more dirt. Dinner happened. Dishes happened. Writing happened until I got too stressed to do it. It's just. It's been a day. A long, worse, painful, scary day.
So I did. I yelled. And then I cried a lot. I am.. not that much better. But oddly, more confident in my ability to get through tech school, assuming there is a reasonable possibility of a job that doesn't involve me moving house. I'm assuming that is not an unreasonable demand from the admissions person. I hope.
I just don't know. And I'd feel a lot more comfortable about this if I did know. But I don't. So I'm going to try not to worry about that part of it for now, and worry about getting my skills back up to snuff.
I looked on their website. Their coding bootcamp prep talks about studying HTML, CSS, JavaScript, Ruby, and "technical interviews" which, huh? But HTML and CSS, yeah, those I'm definitely familiar with. JavaScript not so much, Ruby not at all. But I know where to go to practice it, and I have a notebook ready for notes and things, I have advice from people in tech. ACTUALLY. I should go ask a couple other people I know in tech. (Actually I should probably stop thinking about it.) (I'm going to do that second one because the thought of them giving a non-favorable answer is closing my throat right now.) Anyway. I know what I need to study over the next week. Now I just need to study it.
The rest of the day, not bad? Beads were put away, cross-stitch was gridded, garden was watered and is doing fine, the cherokee purple tomato plant looks very happy to be in more dirt. Dinner happened. Dishes happened. Writing happened until I got too stressed to do it. It's just. It's been a day. A long, worse, painful, scary day.