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Aug. 26th, 2015 10:39 amI read the news today, oh boy.
There's a long, long, long tirade here about US gun culture, lack of sanctity and respect for life, throwaway culture, how we have more guns per capita than any other country including countries currently at war within and without their borders or countries occupied by ISIS or Boko Haram or similar organizations. Countries overrun by drug dealers. There's a multi paragraph rant but I'm too tired and too sad to make it. Pretend I made it. I'm sure a lot of you are thinking the same rant.
Tonight's a capoeira night and I'm seriously considering skipping because all I want to do is curl up under the covers and cry. No, capoeira will make me feel good, it's making me more in shape and giving me more stamina and helping me feel better about myself in ways obvious and less so, I should go. But I'm so goddamn tired and sad. At least work's quiet. I'm not doing much of anything urgent. I should get to writing, am slowly working on various other things, but should get to writing soon. And then tonight there can be bloggery.
Though, heh, I just did the calculations and I really can't afford to have another day of only 2 episodes until Dragon*Con. Yay. At least not unless I do 6 or 7 on Sunday and 4 maybe on Saturday, which I'm tempted to do, that'd put me ahead. Behind in a lot of other things. I don't know. We'll see what I get done today and tonight, I guess. I have been getting better about other things, but I think I just need to resign myself to the fact that I'm not going to get line edits done on White Lightning for a while, because I can't find the toggle to just print up the fucking notes from Scrivener. So, not doing that again. I guess the other hand, though, I can plug stuff into the timeline now that I found the toggle to print that easily, sort other stuff like names of things and dates and events and natures of things so that when I get to line edits after Dragon*Con it's a lot smoother.
There. I have deleted it from my HabitRPG, that makes it official. No more White Lightning line edits until after I get back, so that at least frees my head up from the pressure of having to do that and the resultant stress, even if it doesn't free up any time. Hopefully it makes the remaining time more productive. I have supplemental documents and other stories for the thing I can work on anyway. ETA: There, Editrix has reminded me of two things I can work on for the White Lightning anthology, so that's much better then.
Still so tired. I don't know why this shooting is hitting me harder than the various and sundry others, maybe just the shooter so blatantly reaching out (manifesto, posting self-shot video of the murders) to push all the social media/news fascination buttons that the US has developed. Maybe people wandering around going "And in America..." when NO IT'S NOT FUCKING AMERICA OKAY. CANADA, MEXICO, PERU, CHILE, BRAZIL, THEY DON'T HAVE THIS FUCKING PROBLEM, THIS IS A US PROBLEM. Not that other countries don't have their own share of ick, but. I don't know. Somehow this is all piling up today, reminding me that emotional exhaustion and injury affects you physically just as much as the other way around. It's all one interconnected set of systems. Taking a beating, today.
So, I do my work. And I get my work done, as much of it as I can, as much of it as I have today, and then I read books until I get up tomorrow and do it all over again. And that's how I do.
( Discussing shootings and personal triggers and asshole parents to very small children below. )
Anyway. I have food and I am going to sit on the couch and do things that do not involve the real world for a while. And then I will do some form of home exercise because it's good for me, I enjoy it, and I did not get my body into this kind of shape to lose it now. Plus moving just makes me feel better, dance and movement have always been an uplifter for me.
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There's a long, long, long tirade here about US gun culture, lack of sanctity and respect for life, throwaway culture, how we have more guns per capita than any other country including countries currently at war within and without their borders or countries occupied by ISIS or Boko Haram or similar organizations. Countries overrun by drug dealers. There's a multi paragraph rant but I'm too tired and too sad to make it. Pretend I made it. I'm sure a lot of you are thinking the same rant.
Tonight's a capoeira night and I'm seriously considering skipping because all I want to do is curl up under the covers and cry. No, capoeira will make me feel good, it's making me more in shape and giving me more stamina and helping me feel better about myself in ways obvious and less so, I should go. But I'm so goddamn tired and sad. At least work's quiet. I'm not doing much of anything urgent. I should get to writing, am slowly working on various other things, but should get to writing soon. And then tonight there can be bloggery.
Though, heh, I just did the calculations and I really can't afford to have another day of only 2 episodes until Dragon*Con. Yay. At least not unless I do 6 or 7 on Sunday and 4 maybe on Saturday, which I'm tempted to do, that'd put me ahead. Behind in a lot of other things. I don't know. We'll see what I get done today and tonight, I guess. I have been getting better about other things, but I think I just need to resign myself to the fact that I'm not going to get line edits done on White Lightning for a while, because I can't find the toggle to just print up the fucking notes from Scrivener. So, not doing that again. I guess the other hand, though, I can plug stuff into the timeline now that I found the toggle to print that easily, sort other stuff like names of things and dates and events and natures of things so that when I get to line edits after Dragon*Con it's a lot smoother.
There. I have deleted it from my HabitRPG, that makes it official. No more White Lightning line edits until after I get back, so that at least frees my head up from the pressure of having to do that and the resultant stress, even if it doesn't free up any time. Hopefully it makes the remaining time more productive. I have supplemental documents and other stories for the thing I can work on anyway. ETA: There, Editrix has reminded me of two things I can work on for the White Lightning anthology, so that's much better then.
Still so tired. I don't know why this shooting is hitting me harder than the various and sundry others, maybe just the shooter so blatantly reaching out (manifesto, posting self-shot video of the murders) to push all the social media/news fascination buttons that the US has developed. Maybe people wandering around going "And in America..." when NO IT'S NOT FUCKING AMERICA OKAY. CANADA, MEXICO, PERU, CHILE, BRAZIL, THEY DON'T HAVE THIS FUCKING PROBLEM, THIS IS A US PROBLEM. Not that other countries don't have their own share of ick, but. I don't know. Somehow this is all piling up today, reminding me that emotional exhaustion and injury affects you physically just as much as the other way around. It's all one interconnected set of systems. Taking a beating, today.
So, I do my work. And I get my work done, as much of it as I can, as much of it as I have today, and then I read books until I get up tomorrow and do it all over again. And that's how I do.
( Discussing shootings and personal triggers and asshole parents to very small children below. )
Anyway. I have food and I am going to sit on the couch and do things that do not involve the real world for a while. And then I will do some form of home exercise because it's good for me, I enjoy it, and I did not get my body into this kind of shape to lose it now. Plus moving just makes me feel better, dance and movement have always been an uplifter for me.
( Rotating To-Do List )
Arrow:
The Flash: