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Nov. 4th, 2005 09:07 am( Huh... )
It's a little scary, looking back over the last several entries, realizing how many of them are either me breaking down, me recovering from breaking down, or something similar. I'm still working on putting myself back together again after last time. It's better, even if sometimes I catch myself thinking some things that I'm fairly sure are untrue.
Don't let anyone ever tell you writing is a low-stress easy job, 'cause it's not.
There's that, there's other RL factors that have combined to make my life a living hell these past couple of weeks. Things have been slowly getting better in spite of that. I have most of next week off, which is good, as I could definitely use the time to write and/or finish editing the novel I meant to finish last week and never did. Hopefully my novel will be finished and ready to send off by the end of next week. Hopefully I won't break out into fits of hysteria halfway through and trash it all. The closer I get to done the more it shreds my nerves. Still, I have that and NaNo to work on. I can switch back and forth as things happen, to keep from freaking out. I think.
Roleplaying will recur again probably on Saturday. I may go to bed early tonight and sleep for ten hours again. Sanity is in short supply, but things are getting better all the time. Certain people have been ... helpful beyond any expectation I had, and I am so very grateful to you.
I love you guys. Thanks for being patient with me.
It's a little scary, looking back over the last several entries, realizing how many of them are either me breaking down, me recovering from breaking down, or something similar. I'm still working on putting myself back together again after last time. It's better, even if sometimes I catch myself thinking some things that I'm fairly sure are untrue.
Don't let anyone ever tell you writing is a low-stress easy job, 'cause it's not.
There's that, there's other RL factors that have combined to make my life a living hell these past couple of weeks. Things have been slowly getting better in spite of that. I have most of next week off, which is good, as I could definitely use the time to write and/or finish editing the novel I meant to finish last week and never did. Hopefully my novel will be finished and ready to send off by the end of next week. Hopefully I won't break out into fits of hysteria halfway through and trash it all. The closer I get to done the more it shreds my nerves. Still, I have that and NaNo to work on. I can switch back and forth as things happen, to keep from freaking out. I think.
Roleplaying will recur again probably on Saturday. I may go to bed early tonight and sleep for ten hours again. Sanity is in short supply, but things are getting better all the time. Certain people have been ... helpful beyond any expectation I had, and I am so very grateful to you.
I love you guys. Thanks for being patient with me.